just need some advice

[Victoria1900]

Ok, so tomorrow i am going to make an appointment with a doctor for my crazy thoughts, the repetitive things i do. Would you label this ocd ? Anxiety ? ... I dont know much about it  so I'm feeling nervous on what to even say. But i do need to get some kind of help, I'm tired of using new toilet paper rolls every time i go to the bathroom, my mom notices and gets mad because I'm wasting them :/ ... I have to touch my pad like so many times just to feel it's dried, even though it is dried i keep thinking what if it isn't. I check my towel like the so many times to make sure i see no wet spots. I squat on my own family toilet seat ... All because i have a fear of sperm being everywhere ! And that it's out to get me pregnant, and the thought if it is scary ... At work when using the bathroom it's so hard because I'm scared to catch an std so i like roll the toilet paper so many times until i feel it's right to wipe, i used to Allen like 30 seconds using the bathroom now its like 3min because of the repetive stuff i do ... It's become a pain, I've been so tired lately, i can't focus on my life. I was losing weight and doing really good, i lost 40 pounds, I've gained 15 back because i can't focus on my workouts ... And just now i go to the bathroom and take an old shirt to wipe to avoid toilet paper,and as soon as get done wiping, I'm like what if when i wiped there was a baby spider on it and out went I'm my vagina ... Now I'm stuff about this ... Any advice on how yall got help ... I'm doing it tomorrow, just nervous ..

[57Carol]

please go to the International Obsessive Compulsive Foundation website IOCF and read everything you can by the experts who publish there. Be sure your therapist is trained in cognitive behavioral therapy, not just talk therapy.

[dx90]

Hi Victoria
I understand what you are going through. I recently got diagnosed with OCD (two year ago)

The things you are going through are symptoms of OCD. And no dont worry it is not a serous mental  diseases. It is only a bothersome  disorder.

I do advice you to go talk to a therapist (which I am going to do  too). The therapist will help you change the way you react and think towards these OCD thoughts and how to control your anxiety. You will not totally get rid of your thoughts but you will be taught how not to react negatively to them.

Believe it or not all of us get  irrational thought but the only difference between people like us who have OCD disorder ( 10% of the world population)  and people that dont is that the thought keeps repeating in our head and alarms (anxiety) ring in our brain. When you learn how to not give importance to those thoughts you will get better.

If you need to talk to some one you can message me. Hope you get better
  soon.

P.s sorry for my bad English grammar I live in Vienna.

[Victoria1900]

Used*to take like 30 seconds.
And it went in* my vagina

Sorry for the spelling errors >_<