all, i was diagnosed with anxiety and was given xanax which made me very dull and depress. in order to treat depression docs gave me zoloft which triggered fear of harming myself.i used to see images of hurting myself with knife and sometimes other means. therefore, i developed a sharp fear for knives, heights, and guns etc etc..... that was in May of this year. i went cold turkey on all medicines but since then i am very down. i dont see any images anymore, but i am in constant fear of hurting myself, i avoid going to kitchen, if i see any knife i move it in a cabinet or a drawer. when i am walking about i constantly fear that i might hurt myself. it seems medicines didnt suit me at all and triggered my OCD due to suicidal images. Now, i am obsessed that there will be one day that i will out of impluse eventually hurt myself. Besides that i am still going through withdrawal symptoms of medicines, like electricity in my body, tremors, headaches, vivid dreams and anxiety.
i am hoping that this fear of hurting myself will go away since it was triggered by medicines. Is there anyone out there who has gone through the same ordeal as mine and since eventually managed to overcome medicines based OCD ?