3 month Test Time Again

[coogeegirl]

I know this is something that everyone can relate to but I just have to get it off my chest as my hubby is away for work and it is hard to discuss this over the phone.

Tomorrow is my checkup CT scan and while I am over at the hospital I am going to get my CA125 done as well and my stomach feels like a disaster zone. The appointment with the doctor is the following week on the 28th of February.

I think the stomach upset is from stress (but you can't get away from the niggling in the back of your mind what if it is something else) and I hate that I am starting to get teary and emotional about the whole thing again.

On top of it all I am starting to look for work after having the last year off to deal with treatment,  but I am scared about looking for work (only part time to start off with) even though I know it is a good thing, in case they find something in the next check up.

I know I just have to grab it the bull by the horns and go for it but it is really frustrating how that anxiety creeps into your life.

Sending out lots of hugs to all of you.

Jenny

[hopeshell]

Hi Jenny,

I can totally relate.  My next 3 month is in March and I am already feeling the anxiety coming on.  It was bad enough pre cancer to get just a pelvic exam once a year and now to have to get this check every 3 months and the blood draws, scans, etc...it is something I dread.  My prayers and thoughts are with you.  Hang in there!!!

Love,  Shelly

[lilbubba]

Jenny I will keep you in my prayers and hope for good test results that you all deserve. I hope that all of you receive good results. You are all so special you deserve it.

[suzyQ51]

My prayers are with you also.  I go for my 3 month check up Cat Scan Mar 3...after 3 months of chemo......2nd time  so they can see if it is helping.  This is a wonderful support group and it helps me in just reading everyone's comments.  God bless you all

[PF_PVD]

I'm with you.  I didn't even get to the 3-month checkup--I was put on a monthly checkup schedule which should have made me suspicious.  Sure enough at my first checkup after chemo, my CA125 was up.  I am having another CA125 tomorrow--my 4th in the last six weeks (13-50-62-??) before I see gyn/onc next week to see what he thinks.  My med onc doesn't treat rising CA125 until there is some sign of disease, so I am "waiting" like vegas2cr.  I am really hoping my number and your number and everyone's number goes down, down, down. Paula

[Kimchi]

I understand exactly how you feel...I, too, am scheduled for 3 month check up this month...going in for CT scan on 2/24 and CA125 and go back for results following week...THis last month has been extra hard as all I seem to think of is whether the cancer is back or not...little unusual or familiar (from prior to being diagnosed) aches, twinges, burps,...makes me wonder if this is the cancer coming back too...Sometimes thing I prefer being on chemo, Stupid me!!!
Well good luck to all of us and may we all get positive news!!

[gah_70]

You're right.  There are so many of us here who can relate to that.  Wish there was something grand I could say to make you feel better, but worrying about these things are just part of this ugly thing.  I will be thinking of you and wishing you get all positive news.  We're all there in spirit to hold your hand.  Best wishes to you.  Let us know what you find out next week.

Gail :)

[Mid]

Hi Jenny
                   Sending you my positive vibes and will be thinking of you.

Remember we are always here for you.
Take care
Mid

[freshair]

Jenny--I am wishing you the best of luck with your tests. It's so horrible to worry, worry, worry on top of having this disease. I find a little ativan helps when you can't control it. Go for a job that is easy on yourself and something you like. Please don't put pressure on yourself.  All my best, Helen

[Conquerer]

boydo i know your shoes.  I still haven't gone for my CA125 but will go on Wed and see the doctor 2/28.  I feel fine except when my brain gets involved.  I think is the ca is ok I am going to ask for a CT scan a insurance since this is a year since my chemo.  Be strong and I will be praying for you

[Conquerer]

boydo i know your shoes.  I still haven't gone for my CA125 but will go on Wed and see the doctor 2/28.  I feel fine except when my brain gets involved.  I think is the ca is ok I am going to ask for a CT scan a insurance since this is a year since my chemo.  Be strong and I will be praying for you

[Danimatt]

Hi Jenny,

Sending positive thoughts from Chicago - You will be in my thoughts and prayers.  Hugs XOXO

[gma718]

Just want  you to know I will be thinking about you.....Good Luck!!! Love, Gia :)

[marie3B]

It is my 3 mo check time too. I have CTon 2/28 and onc appt on 3/7.  I found a new lump I could feel a few wks ago, onc said don't worry, we'll wait and see. I wish you great news on your check up. I also hope you find a job that makes you happy. Marie

[vegas2cr]

I had my 3 month check up this past week.. Not happy.  my ca 125 is up 50% and the trans vagina ultrasound showed a new lesion.  I was finished with chemo and debulking last Sept.. not much time in between.. I see my oncologist Wednesday but my radiologist says she will probably wait and see.  Wait and SEE wait and SEE What?  It is the nature of the disease.  I feel well and I live each day knowing I could not feel good.  What ever is in store for me well thats down the road and no amount of making me and my family miserable is going to change that.
I think positive and hope for the best.. Its tough waiting I know but its part of what we have to do.. I am sending the most postive vibes I can to you right now.. I pray that things will be good for you....

[Morde1955]

Know EXACTLY what you're going through.  I get ca125 results tomorrow.  Have been toe-ee all day...all weekend.  Even went through the dry wretching sessions!  Can't help it, but trying to just take it one glump at a time. Coogeegirl, know that you are not alone.

Have had the "twinges" and the aches and ...every little/big/twang...leads the brain to the beastie.  

Let's just take each glump, or not-glump, one at a time...I know it's hard.  Hope your tests are as clear as a bell.

[Helmar]

Hi Jenny... Just want to wish you all the best for your test results. It's hard not to think 'cancer' when there are a few little niggly twitches going on, but it's probably nothing to worry about. Stress can do strange things to people, so it's time to worry about stuff if you need to. That's good that you are looking for a job... that should take your mind off other things. :-)
Let's know how it all goes for you.  Hugs...Helen...