Victoria

[Anna-maria74]

Victoria left us at 12.05 yesterday after so much suffering, such a will to live - boy did she want to live. You know I kept coming in here hoping someone else would have written this - someone else will do it, I dont have to face it. Thats not what Victoria would have done for me though is it? Friday she posted a message asking my dear friends to think of me and what I didnt realise at that time was that she didnt have long left. Still she was putting me first - hiding the truth of her illness to protect me. How many people do you know like this? I will rephrase, how many 16 year olds do you know who are like this? She never asked anything of anyone - only knew how to give. I told her that thinking of her was the only thing that got me through every hour without my baby. So she didnt tell me there were not many hours left so I would stay strong.

I can not find the words to do this beautiful child justice I am simply not equal to the task. So why have I stopped snivelling behind the sofa to leave this message now. Well because her partner - Vadim - who sat there until the end tells me that she felt so isolated and lonely and afraid and felt that no-one cared. She felt that no-one cared and he still feels it. People have been - he says - so matter of fact about her illness in life and there has been little impact now that she has gone. I let her down. It doesnt matter what I did or didnt do or say I let her down simply because of the way she felt. That is my cross to bare. vadim thinks no-one cares he is wrong. The irony of the situation is that she was so strong she never truely reached out as she didnt want to worry anyone. He thinks no-one will respond to this - he is going to be wrong about that too.

My words dont speak as loudly as seeing this spirit for yourselves so I am posting some links so that you can see what the world has lost.

I love you Victoria

Anna X

[Tybear]

I read this yesterday but didn't post...I didn't know what to say and still don't. Words cannot describe what a shock this was to read. Anna, I know how close you and some others had become to Victoria...you helped her through what must have been the most difficult time in her life. The only thing that even comforts me in the slightest is knowing she has her mom's loving arms wrapped around her at this very moment - that she's not alone.
Love Becky

[Happy2girls]

I just wanted to offer my sincere condolence during this very sad and trying time.  From what I have read above it seems Victoria earned her wings long before she entered Paradise. Though I do not post here I hope you will allow me to grieve with you for this world's loss of the precious angel, Victoria, who was clearly loved by so very many.  I hope that those close to her will find some peace.  You are all in my prayers.    

[Med Help]

We were deeply saddened to hear that Victoria died yesterday.  The comments posted above are so touching and clearly a loving tribute to Victoria from her many friends.

Our thoughts and prayers are wiith Victoria, her loved ones and friends.

Cindy Thompson and everyone at MedHelp International

[coogeegirl]

I am so sad to hear of the passing of such a young caring person as Victoria obviously was. I send my condolences to her boyfriend Vadim and all of her family

Jenny

[lvfrogs]

I was so saddened to read this post this morning.  From what I read on postings over the last few months, Victoria was a very special woman, very strong and from what I read on here, everyone gave her tremendous support and love, as she did for all of you.   May God bring peace and comfort to all of you and to Vadim.... Colleen

[Helmar]

For one so young, Victoria has left us with nice memories of how well she handled her Mum's illness... and her own. I had no idea how ill Victoria was, and feel so sorry that she will no longer be part of our family here. My sincere condolences go to her boyfriend...Vadim, and other members of her family. May she now rest in eternal peace with her dear Mum.   Warm hugs to all...Helen...