HELP! I need answers...

[AmandaKMO]

Well, I am up at 2:40 a.m. wondering what the heck happened...

On Wednesday, I went into my OBY/GN's office thinking that I was about 6 weeks pregnant.  When I laid down to get my physical exam done my Dr. said that she thought I was 2-3 months further along than what I had calculated based on my 'uterus' size.  When she fired up the ultrasound machine she pretty much told me it didn't look good.  There was no heartbeat and the 'baby' did not look right.  I have had a miscarriage before so I had tried to prepare myself for this possiblility before I went in.  Luckily, my Dr. is wonderful and sent me over to another office for a more in depth ultrasound.  That is when the rollercoaster ride began!  I was indeed pregnant!  Heartbeat and measurements all were great for a 6 1/2 week old fetus.  However, I also had a very large tumor attached to one of my ovaries.  This tumor has completely seperate from the baby but it was so large that it blocked it from view.  At that ultrasound the Dr. measured the tumor at approximately 12cm x 12cm x 9cm.  I was told this is something that had to come out surgically.  I had an MRI yesterday to try and 'diagnose' what type of tumor I had but it did not help.  On my MRI the tumor measured even larger.  My Dr. is now consulting a gynological oncologist to see if he thinks this is cancer based on my tests.  I had a CA 125 done also this morning.  I am so scared...not so much of having cancer but of all of the unknowns...I just want to know!!!  Then I can have a plan!  I am waiting to hear back from my Dr. to see if she is going to do the surgery (if she thinks it is not cancerous) or if the specialist will do the surgery (more likely cancer).  I am trying to wrap my head around all of this but it is so hard!  Every time I look at my almost 2 year old son I tear up...I am 30 years old...I am so scared!  I am also scared for this baby...if I have cancer what am I going to do?  I have a few questions that would be nice to get some feedback on:

1)  How likely do you think it is that this is cancer?  Do my Dr's orders for tests mean cancer???
2)  Is there anything I should be doing now?  Trying to get into some clinic or something???
3)  How do you guys sleep?  I feel like I am having panic attacks and if I wake up in the middle of the night...I am up worrying?

Thank you so much for this outlet...I feel a bit better already just telling someone my fears!  

[gma718]

Everyone is right..take one step at a time...first and foremost a gyn/onc is the best option if you need the tumor removed...I had a mass just as big and it was benign so don't get worked up before you know..also the ca-125 is not always an accurate tool as it can still be elevated with benign conditons..mine was...also, no matter what the results come back do seek a second opinion just for piece of mind..that is always the best thing to do...Right now try and take it as easy as possible.  Everything will be okay..I am sending you positive prayers and thoughts your way..Please post and let us know what the Doctor says as soon as you know...Gia :)

[Knotmeg]

We are here for you.  I'm sorry this is all happening at once.. especially with the news of a new baby on the way.

Your doc seems to be doing the right thing... and my BEST ADVICE for you right now.. is to do your best to remain calm and healthy... the stress and anxiety is shared with baby... so try try try to focus on other things for now.  

Keep us posted.
Meg

[AmandaKMO]

Thank you both for your kind words.  I will hear today about my surgery date and everything else!  Think good thoughts and I will post when I hear!

[Hazel30]

Hi there, I am so sorry you have to go through this big scare especialy while your pregnant.  Try to stay calm, for your son and yourself.  Most likely this is not cancer as 99% tumors are benign but your doctor is doing the best thing by refering you to a specialist a gyn/oncologist.  This is the doctor you want present in doing your surgery as they are experts in these type of conditions.  Many people go through surgery and find out its benign.  Dont over think things and dont assume anything you will just drive yourself insane.  Wait to hear back from you doctor or as I would do call and speed things up.  Im sure they understand how you feel...There is nothing you can realy do right now until the tumor is biopsied and thats in surgery.  Take care and I wish you the best outcome.

[Kathy70]

Im so sorry your going through this.  It is terribly scary, but try to stay calm.  Sounds like your Dr is doing the right thing by having a gyn/onc step in......that is a MUST.  You dont want to go in for surgery without an gyn/onc present.  
I was only dx back in April.....and I TOTALLY understand your not sleeping.  I couldnt shut my eyes for weeks....everytime the lights went out, the tears would start.  But it does get better, a little easier.....I do sleep now.  
Just stay calm....you dont even know you have cancer right now......but just know your not alone.........I'll keep you in my prayers.
Kathy