hello everyone my name is Sam...I became a widow as of July 2011:'(..i just turned 25 yrs old in DEC..i have 2 boys under my care...i am always upset because my husband went to a different state because he said he wanted to look for my kids "future"..so he went to a different state and bought a gas station...he was so happy and so was i he left me with my kids in the middle of June and before he left out of town he cried and told me please take care of yourself and the kids just in case i don't come back..i cried so much because why would he tell me that..he bought the GS and worked in it the next day until 2am he was heading home in the state which where he was at and a drunk driver crashed him and leaving my husband dead in the car with his seat belt on (may God grant him the high status in paradise)..and the drunk driver flew out the window but still survived...this is according to the Police report...now i keep crying and hate to be surrounded by people, i don't like to share my feelings to anyone, i trap my self in the house and keep picturing my husband in my mind on how he was when he died...i already have Multiple Sclerosis since i was 16 yrs old and had low platelets (ITP) in the past and now people see me so depressed and think i have PTSD..i do not know how to be patient well but i am trying m best..please help me what to do...thank u all