I wasn't treated right by those who are meant to help you

[freddie8605]

When i was 13 years old i was taken to my local mental health clinic as i was having panic attacks and was depressed. i went there for 18 months before i began to realize i was going to this place once a week and nothing was changing. This was probably because i would go there have a hot drink of coco and then talk about the weekend ahead and what my plans were and i would go home. after awhile i started asking questions such as why i was going because that time i didn't actually know. I didn't have names that was going on for me. over the next year  that i went there i slowly got more and more depressed and i was diagnosed with a verity of issues,including personality disorders and they said i was lying and manipulating them, i was put on very low doses of medication when my parents complained i wasn't getting any better. then they would complain again and they slowly turned me against my parents, the clinic manipulated me and my family and tore me apart, playing games with me putting me in care and hospitalized me, where the miss-treatment continued . they dismissed all my personal rights and they made me feel so little and i got so bad all i could think about is killing myself, finally i went manic and i felt so great i left the half way house and moved town. I am now diagnosed with bipolar with psychotic features and PTSD because of the miss-treatment i received from the mental health clinic, the problem with that is it makes it very hard to trust any doctor and therapist and i continue to have nightmares of the trauma of being powerless to all the things they did to me. IT HAS BEEN A HARD ROAD.

I wont tell you not to seek help because there are good pdocs out there and good psychologist just be careful and if you don't like them and they don't help you, and go to another one.

[margypops]

So sorry to hear your story no child should ever be treated like that ,its good you are able to tell your story and help others , I also admire your courage ,want to talk sometime I am always around ...marg

[drifter0213]

i think it takes alot of courage to ask for help i hope you feel better and have better days ok :)