Over the weekend I was being followed by someone who I assumed was an aggressive driver. It turned out to be a police man. He was insanely rude. He began protocol, which I complied with until I began having a panic attack. As a cutter, I'm ashamed to admit I resorted to slitting my wrists. The cuts were superficial. The officer asked me some questions and I answered until he laughed in my face and said that I was getting two tickets for arguing with him. I called my therapist and he said I had to get out of the car or have him talk to my therapist. I was very upset and said, please wait. He got huffy and came around to the drivers side and ripped me out of the car. He drug me along the interstate and threw me on the ground. A fellow police man came up and they chucked me in the grass. They laughed together and said I was being smart and faking. It started to pour and I just layed on the road until EMTs came. They were very nice to me. I ended up going to the hospital for five hours just to take a pee test which didn't make any sense to me.
A couple of years ago, I was raped while on vacation in Ocean City, NJ. It was a traumatic event that had followed the incessant physical, emotional, and mental abuse from my foster father. After this current incident, I don't know what to think. I feel weak all around and just scared in general of authority. I wrote down the event to the tee and took pictures of the bruises and cuts he caused me. I called the state watchmen to explain what happened but he laughed at me, too, and hung up.
How do I go about bringing justice to the situation? If I was not responsible and they did not feel I did not comply, I will take the reprocutions in stride but I will not be subjected to abuse. I don't know what to do ... I feel lost and defeated. Please give me some words of advice.