I think one of the reasons I'm so down lately is that it seems that in addition to all my issues with my hand, I seem to be having flare-ups with other things as well. The arthritis in my left hand that started my journey with the surgeries was so bad the bones were all cracked and broken. The surgeon had said he never saw anything like it in someone my age. But the other hand was nearly equally as painful. The arthritis is also in my right hip, a bit in my knees and back, and probably a few other spots to a lesser degree.
I also was diagnosed with fibromyalgia over ten years ago. My initial flare-up with it was very bad. But it's been really good for the past several years. So much so that I wondered if I really had it.
Lately, though, it seems everything is acting up. When I first started taking narcotics for my left hand, it helped with the discomfort and pain in my other hand and hip. But over the past month or so, those areas have been painful as well. Getting in and out of the car and doing the stairs really kill me.
And the fibromyalgia seems to be in a flare-up as well. Seems like a moderate flare-up. All my trigger points are acting up and I've been fatigued, but I can't really get great sleep. (Which for me is really important.) I do take Ambien, though I've sort of laid off it a bit, just because I don't want to be dependent on that as well as the other meds I take. I did take one last night, though, because I felt like if I was to get a great night's sleep maybe I'd feel a bit better.
Not too much better today though. I feel the typical symptoms most fibro patients feel. Achy and sore and just overall feeling pretty blah.
I'm so grateful that I was able to throw such a great party for my daughter on Friday night. Everything was perfect, from the food to the centerpieces to the music and the guests. And I didn't stress myself out. I ordered everything. My family and a couple of friends helped with the decorating and picking up of food and getting things in the oven and outside. I realized that if I tried to do it all myself (which I normally do) I'd be in bad shape for quite a while. But this time, I didn't micro-manage things, and it all turned out perfectly.
I'm going to email the nurse practitioner and see if I can get in to see her and see what she thinks. I need to get out of this flareup, at least for a bit. For me, when I do have a flareup of things, it seems very difficult to break the cycle.
Thanks to everyone here who's been so helpful. This forum is a God send. I told a good friend with CP about it because she feels very much like I do; very isolated and alone. I hope she comes on and gets the support that I know could help her.