Well, I was seriously injured in Iraq after an IED attack. By all means I should be dead and many days I often wished I were. But I noticed that these are only the days when I am close to being out of my medicine, Actiq or fentanyl lolli-pops! They were a God send at first but over 5 years later, more than 50 surgeries to replace my urinary tract and my "man plumbing". I have had a supra pubic cath, a couple of urinary stints in the ureter and I could go on and on. I am now taking up to 10 - 1600mcg of the fentanyl lolli-pops, the max dose that lately doesn't work as well. This is the max dose, then what? The real issue, my friends, is that I no longer wish to be on this medicine ... AT ALL! I have been managing to reduce my dosages myself by cutting the lozenges in halves and quarters. why don't I just go to a lower dose, one is my doctor feels I need to stay at my level ... So we disagree and I'll do it my way if I have to. I tried the suboxone and had an allergic-type reaction that literally sent me into respiratory failure, hallucinations and others. It was not a true anaphalaxis but I didn't know how to describe it. Currently I am recovering from a surgery, post op 9 days, at which they installed wires, slings and stimulators to keep electric pulses going through my bladder, kidneys and other things that was hopefully to allow me to urinate without the use of a catheter. I have the wires 4 in total, coaxial cable sized, poking out of my back and sides into an elctric stimulator, I call it my bladder pace maker. So I'm back to taking the entire 1600mcg for now. Another surgery is scheduled for Monday to replace a couple deffective wires and prepare my body to maybe put the entire thing inside me anchored to my pelvic bones. So full doses for the next month probably. Then I'm back to working it down. I called about a Waxmann Method for detox but they don not accept insurance and it's a whopping $22,000.00! That is my military member's discount price too! You are in the hospital for about a week but you are detoxed under general anesthesia and completely clean after about 90 minutes. The cost makes this unreachable. I discussed this with my case manager at the VA, trying to get them to pay for it. The medicine is $21,500.00/month! You do the math. They would save $100,000.00 immediately the first year! but they refused to pay for it. So, Suboxone seemed the next best chance. I covered the suboxone and how much of a picnic it was and other than titrating myself down, which will take forever, I'm seeking advice. Please do not waste my time with begging me to sale them to you, YES this has happened at other sites I've searched out info from where people literally BEG me to sale them to them! And the ungodly amount they offered was just sick! Impressively large numbers but a sick idea. So, please, I'm here looking for logical, legal advice. Anything different will be wasting both our times.