depression

[Jessi15]

I was 23 when my husband died do to a doctor prescribing him Methadone.  He had cystic fibrosis. 2 weeks before that I found his brother dead in his house the day before my oldest daughters birthday.  I have not been able to sleep in the dark or go outside by myself in the dark. A year and a half later my grandmother died do to Hep C 2 weeks before I had my son.  And a year after that my grandfather followed her. It has been years since these incidents but I can not close my eyes without seeing my brother n law lying dead. An seeing my husband and my grandmother in those hospital beds.  I had to make a decision at 23 that most people never have to face to put my husband on life support.  I am now remarried but I feel I am ruining my marriage because I still have not dealed with this.  I need some help.  I am so depressed on how to handle my life.  My 3 wonderful children are what keep me going.

[OtisDaMan]

Unfortunately traumatic events can form strong and lasting memories; in many situations they fade in time and lose the emotional impact, allowing the sufferer to move through and on. However, sometimes traumatic events don't recede. This is one symptom of what is currently referred to as post-traumatic stress, although it is not exclusive to post-traumatic stress. Severe depression can also result from traumatic events. Both psychologists and psychiatrists are capable of assisting you to overcome difficulties with traumatic memories and/or depression: there are a range of approaches covering the spectrum from purely pharmaceutical to purely therapy. I'd suggest seeing at least a psychologist as soon as is reasonable.

Regards,

OtisDaMan

[cai59]

maybe you are experiencing major depression. i advice you to visit a phsychiatrist.because its not a joke it may lead to mental disorder..

[Lisa034]

I am so sorry for your loss.  Now I know why you are so against methadone.  I did not know.  Again I am very sorry please accept.

Sorry
Lisa
Jacksonville,FL

[Holliee]

I am so very sorry for both of your loss. That is awful and so sad and young to lose a loved one with so much life left in them. I will pray for you both and may time heal your wounds and heart. Keep your wonderful memories. Jessi have you ever thought about seeing someone or getting on depression meds???

To both I was wondering how did they od on methadone as some know I am on methadone and have been 2 yrs now, I am on stable dose 95mg and nothing else. Thanks

God Bless and stay strong,
Hollie

[TrayCee]

I was 29 when my husband died from Dr. prescribed Methadone & Xanax.  I'm 43 now.  


                                           *~*Time heals all*~*

[Hanaamontana]

I'm sorry for your loss. I think the best way to heal and com out of your depression is spending more time with your new husband and kids. You should all talk a nice vacation. Good luck!

[bgb1976]

I am so truly sorry. Sometimes it is more difficult than people even dream of imaging. Last monday my 2 month old nephew died. Unknown cause, but it has been devastating and we r so angry not understanding why, but what keeps up going is lots of prayers and I will say some prayers for you. You should really go and talk to a counselor. you would be amazed at the difference it would make for you and your family. Good luck and I am here if you would like to talk more.