I've been dealing with this for 30 years. I have my good and bad days. Doing stuff outdoors really helps. Deal with less people and exercise releases stress.
Last couple months were tough. Feel like I could do so much more for God if I didn't have this. I know he wants to build my faith but this *****. I realize we were built to have relationships. And this patm makes it impossible. I have plenty of shallow friendships but my heart desires more. It's like being tortured in a sense although I know God always does what's best.
So what has gotten me this far.....taking it one day at a time. Matthew 6:34
Yes, there are pros to weigh out the cons. For example patm has taught me alot of things. Of course its debilitating to have this condition and its taught us some very valuable lessons. I am a stronger person mentally with this condition. Of course it drains your mental state, in some sense it adds to the effect that patm can make you mentally mad or mentally happy. What I've learned from having this condition for 10+ years is that naturally forgetting about it (which is no easy thing to do) takes a lot of time and dedication. But its no real cure because this has been infested into our brains. Also I've gone through the initial stages of going to doctors and other professionals only to be labelled a mental criteria. Not ruling out mentality has anything to do with it but I've seen therapists and what not and the problem still remains. I've zero social life. What's kept me sane is a tricky question. Becoming mentally strong is something you will have to learn to take on to survive in this world. I would one day like to meet with a patmer who experiences this and is genuinely baffled as to why this or such a condition exists. It would be my dream to one day get married and have kids but patm is making this a harder deal. This is a human type condition. As long as you're human you stand the chance of developing such a puzzling condition and leading this dilemma of a life. Good regards everybody!
Pj