I have do have other furbabies and i love them all dearly.But Chloe needed me as much as i did her.When she was born it was as if i had just given birth to her myself...I know that sounds crazy.But just like any proud parents would do we had planned everything out.My husband carried her around just like any proud daddy would do.It didnt matter that she was a little girl and not a manly looking baby.He was proud of her and loved showing her off.When he ate at night he would share his food with her and she loved all the attention.It is so hard when i go to my vets office.It all comes back to me and i break down and then they get upset to.My vet is a really good friend of mine and he sill tears up when we talk about her.I know Chloe wouldnt want me to hurt like this,But i cry for me and my loss.I feel so empty and alone when everyone goes to bed at night and she is not by my side.Sometimes i can still feel her with me.Its like she is trying to tell me that she will always be with me.I know that i was blessed to have gotten to have had her in my life and loved her than to have never been able to have had her at all.She gave me a lifetime of love and memories and i am Thankful for that.Thankyou both for being so sweet and kind to me.It means alot to me.God Bless Both of You.Chan
Oh Chasha, my heart goes out to you as well. I am sorry for yr loss. I hope you can find another pet to love again. You dont have to let her go, you still have yr memories. Like I told Judy It always helped me to get another pet that needed a home. It will take some time Im sure, I did me to but I just couldnt live without a animal in my house, It was to lonely even with the house full. Your in my prayers sweety.
Nadine
When I took Toby to our vet hospital, he was fine and I was told he would be fine, so I left for work (1 hr. away) and that's when I got that phone call that we all dread that he was in full cardiac arrest. At the very moment he has the heart attack, I felt a panic attack and got up and walk right out of work to the vet hospital, but when I got there, he had pass and on top of that the office closed. As yourself, I will never truly understand what happened in there.
Chan, it will take time to heal such a loss and I will keep you all in my prayers. Judy
Thankyou so much for the kind words.When i went to the vet the day after i lost her.I asked to see the med that she was given and i also checked the dosage that was given and it did match with the amount gone out of the bottle.They think that she had had a heartattack in the past and somehow her heart was weak.But she was in perfect health.I still dont understand and i need to know what happened.I miss her so much and i dont think that time will ever help with the hurt i feel.She was such a blessing to all of our lives and we now all feel so lost without her.I knwo she wouldt want to see me like this,But i just cant let her go.Please keep us in your prayers and thankyou for giving us a place to ome and talk .God Bless You.Chan
I read your post it brought a tear to my eyes. I'm so very sorry for the loss of your precious little girl Coco. I just loved the photo of her, she was beautiful! How beautiful that you welcomed her to your heart and home with an instant family that loved her from birth. The Pekenese is such a beautiful bread and as yourself, Toby was my boy who thought he was a human little boy and would get jealous if I spoke baby talk to another dog. Was Coco overdosed? I know exactly how you feel and after Toby died, I rush to the vet, it had closed and I pounded on the door, until someone let me in. The staff was so compassionate with me, because I was a wreck! I asked if I could see him and they brought him out in a black garbage bag, yes, garbage bag from the refridgerator and I was so upset, but that is what they do. I asked them to leave and I opened the bag and there was his beautiful face. I wanted to die! I hugged him and told him momma is hear and that I didn't forget about him, I said I was so sorry that I wan't there when he died. I felt soo guilty. I hugged him and kissed him tenderly and wispered in his ear, "It's ok to go, go to the light and go find Niki (his dog birth mother who passed a month earlier). He was still warm.
I signal to the workers that I was ok and went home and had to give the news to my mother (who is now deceased) that Toby died. Oh, how she grieved. I sat on the spot where he slept for over 10 yrs. next to me and sobbed until I couldn't sob anymore.
When we lose our pets, it is a death and we go through the same grief process as if we had loss a family member. It took me a very long time to heal and it help to talk with people who understood my pain. Some people can never understand that a pet is more that just an animal, they provide unconditional love and will always be in our heart.
It' will be ok, one step at a time and don't be afraid to write and say how much you hurt. Your little Coco would not want to see you crying and I feel that God created our pets also, so there must be a very special place for them also. So, until you meet again, you and Coco are in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs, Judy