There are so may beautiful pets in shelters in need of adoption and they also have their story's some just terrible. When I'm ready to get another pet, I will definately consider a shelter first. Thank you both for sharing.
I am so sorry for your loss. My sister lost her son four years ago, and the week he died I found a little kitten. That kitten gave me a lot of comfort when no one else could, you might consider rescuing one from a shelter, perhaps you could then help each other. You need any additional comfort you can get at this time. God bless .
You have been through sooo much that only you, God and another who has loss family to violence and I didn't know about your kitty also. I think you also know my story that I loss 7 in an 8 month period including my mom, brother in law, future father in law, family baby 2 weeks before Christmas. That is what brought me to "Grief & Loss", but I also loss my doggie son Toby and I was DEVISTATED. He had been ill for some time and had these strange gurgeling noises in his stomach. I even changed his died to soft food as for a baby, yet it wasn't meant to be. I wanted to die when I saw him in a black bag in the vet hospital. I wispered in his ear that, "it's ok, mami is here, it's ok to go, I want you to go to the light and find Niki (his birth dog mom who passed 1 month earlier). I kissed his head and when I got home sat on the spot where he always would lay and sobbed. I've look at death in the face after mom was taken from my arms and I'm not the same person. I will eternally miss them all and my beautiful "big 135 pd" boy who thought he was a little boy.
Did I tell you that there is a website call "M.O.M.s" for mother's who have loss a family member to violence. It's a fantastic website and I recommend it and as for you little Kitty, What happened that he passed?