I will pray for you. If you feel yourself to be the greatest sinner, Christ is just what you need, the greatest Saviour. Lift up your head and look away from yourself, away from your sin, to the uplifted Saviour; away from the poisonous, venomous bite of the serpent to the Lamb of God who taketh away the sin of the world. Jesus is just a prayer away and waits to make us whole. :)
I know you don't know me but I was also a victim pf abuse. God was the only thing that could help. My husband is saved now, has 17years of soberity and has made a90% turn around. He is a work in progress.