I miss him

[Tanker Chic]

To day is Jacobs second day in daycare and I really really really really miss him.  I just dropped him off 2 hours ago and it feels like I'm missing part of myself.  I don't actually go back to work until tomorrow.  Maybe it will be easier then because I will be focused on work.  

Yesterday (his first day) he hardly ate anything all day, but that had really started the evening before. When I brought him home yesterday I switched back to the playtex bottle and he seemed to do really well for the rest of the evening and this morning.  I really hope that carries over into today.  

I keep looking around for him and expecting him to wake up any moment, and then I remember he isn't here.  I really feel like he is an extension of me, and that part is missing. :(

I miss my little baby Jacob.  I hope this gets easier.  

[precious03]

I run my own in-home daycare!!  I see new parents struggle with this all the time!!  I can't stress enough how important it is to find a daycare that you are comfortable with!!  Always ask questions!!  Your daycare should always be able to answer any questions you have about what your child did throughout the day!!  If not, find a new daycare!!  Watch for other "good" signs also!!  like do they bring up any concerns, tell you when they ate or were changed last!!  It is definately a difficult thing to do, but if you can find the right person, it is just like leaving them with a loving, responsible aunt!!  Good Luck!!

[nylena]

Hey,I think I understand what you mean,I ve started feeling this incredible bonding myself and it's scary! I hope it does get better Hannah! Take good care of you and little Jacob! I hope I have more time in the future to ''drop by'' and see how all guys doing but for now it 's crazy...!We are 6 weeks old and I don't have a single minute for myself or my computer...

[Tanker Chic]

Thanks for understanding everyone.  I'm gonna go pick him up now.  It feels like Christmas :)

[tina1111]

Oh that makes me sad, Hannah!  I'm not even pg yet and that is one thing I always think about dreading. I am lucky that I have my sister to take care of the "if ever" baby. But, I still roll around not going back to work, too. he he  Tim would have a cow though. I hope it gets better for you ((hughs)))

[valleybabes]

It was different for me when my two oldest were small I got to spend all my time with them and I loved every minute of it!  This time I will have to go back to work as soon as possibe because I have been off for so long since my second month of pregnancy when I had my first scare with the bleed and clotting.  Tanker Chic, things do get a little worse before they get better, but I am sure everything will fall into place for you.....don't worry so much.

Big hugs!!! Delma
     24weeks

[pcarsey]

Aww Hannah- I so hope it gets easier, although I can't imagine how much easier it could get. I would miss him more then working and would have a hard HARD hard time going back to work!!

I'm thinking of you both!!

[dainsey]

oh god it made me so sad to read your post!  I have to put Sofia in daycare when I go back in July and I can't imagine how hard it will be.  Is your daycare place close to your work so that you can see him at lunch?  My company has daycare at our office so at least I'll be able to see her during the day but it still won't be the same...  We really should get more time off than 12 weeks!  That just isn't enough :-(  

[1nana]

The two of you have to adjust to a whole new routine and once that happens it will get easier for both of you. Believe me, I know just how you feel.

[babyprayers]

hannay,
   I am so sorry, I know how hard it is, just keep in mind.. I have to work, I am doing this for him.... I cannot even write down words for there really are no words to say, just try to keep your chin up, and look forward to the end of the day when you can go home and love him up..

[Brown Eyed Gurl]

oh man I dread the day I have to leave Mekaila and Jacob with the sitter......I'll probably cry more than they do.

[melimeli]

I am so sorry... it really doesn't get a whole lot easier.. in fact they get to a stage for a while where they cry and scream and tell you not to leave them and it is really hard...  By nature we are designed to be mommies... To care for our young.. it is our society that has taken us out of that role... You don't see a mamma bear dropping her kids off with anyone else... well we have to fight against all of our natural instincts to leave our babies...  It is so sad.. that is why I am so pissed that HR didn't approve my year leave.. I will only get 5 and 1/2 months if I don't quit... it is so hard, I know...  Good luck and just try to work as little as possible... be a mamma... the time when they are babies is so short