I was pregnant with twins. Could one baby still make it?

[bhikfxtr]

This is an emotional roller coaster. I would LOVE feedback, so here goes....I am 36 years old and this is my first ever pregnancy. I tested pregnant at home on Sept 2nd. I immediately made an appointment with a new Dr. recommended by my neighbor. They couldn't get me in until Sept 21. In the in between time, I began having light bleeding. I read that this happens usually 1-2 days during implantation, so I held on. When I continued bleeding right up to my Dr. appt, I assumed I was experiencing a miscarriage. On the day of my 1st Dr. appt, I was told 4 things.......1)"You are still pregnant", 2)"You are 5 and a half weeks pregnant with twins", 3)"You have a bicornuate uterus" (2 uteruses), and 4)"You have a blood clot in the same uterus that is carrying the twins."   I was so shocked and happy!!!   Exactly a week later, my u/s showed one of the twins looking as if it was in the midst of evaporating. But the other sac was intact, and I could see a fetal pole which was not there the week before. Previously, they were both empty sacs. I've never been pregnant before, so this is all new to me. There was no discussion about finding or not finding a heartbeat and I of course didn't think to ask. I was so sad to see only one intact sac, but I was hoping that at least one of the babies would be ok. My husband and I waited for the Dr. to come and help us make sense of what we saw on the screen in my u/s. He told us that both are not measuring what they should be. He didn't mention the vast difference between the 2 sacs that I saw. He just said they should be measuring 6 and a half weeks, but they are still measuring 5 (not even 5 and a half).  Tomorrow will be a week since my last appointment. I have no cramps and absolutely no bleeding. Is it possible I could still have a live baby in there? I love my Dr. office by the way. They have been very kind and supportive. Good or bad, I just wish I knew for sure. I'm waiting it out for now. They tell me with my bicornuite uterus, it would be better not to do a d&c. That's fine with me. As difficult as it is to wait, I want to do everything I can to be able to get pregnant again.

[bhikfxtr]

Update- Today it seems I have finally stopped bleeding. This truly helps with the emotional side of things. I had begun bleeding on Oct 13th. Then, on the evenings of the 15th and 16th (full moon), I had the worst pain of my life and passed the most tissue. Both nights I had literal contractions 2 minutes exactly apart for most of the night. I felt faint at one point from the pain, but eventually the pain became more manageable. I had an ultrasound on the 17th which showed that I had passed the large blood clot that was larger than both sacs put together and was found in the same uterus as the twins, and the 2nd gestational sac (the first "vanished" as in vanishing twin syndrome). They said I still had what they described as hemorrhage left in the uterus. I continued to bleed, then on the 20th, I was diagnosed with strep throat...which I have never had in my life. That hit me very hard emotionally, but I am now on the upswing and half way through my antibiotics. My husband and I will start trying soon, and I will try to check back to see if I can offer any help to others. After going through such an ordeal, I now feel incredibly moved to try and reach out to others who may need support in this difficult experience. I have decided to begin a blog as part of my recovery and hopefully to somehow help other victims of miscarriage somehow. That is all for now. I send all my love and prayers of healing to all those who feel alone in their struggle. You are NOT alone dear souls!

[bhikfxtr]

Still no cramping today but I just passed a maybe dime size clot in the toilet. It was not round it was (tmi warning) more just stringy followed with little drops afterwards. I went home from work in case this is it. It was pretty upsetting but I'm ok. You'd think this would be definite news, however....no unfortunately. When I had my first u/s they found a clot hanging out in the same uterus where my twins were seen. Ugh, Monday can't come soon enough. I am yearning to move on if that's what I need to do!

[Nizz_89]

I'm so sorry about your loss. I can appreciate the emotional rollercoaster you've just been on and it's extremely hard and exhausting for a woman. I pray that you are blessed with a little angel of your own sooner than you think.

[bhikfxtr]

Thank you Nizz_89!

[bhikfxtr]

Well, I started bleeding in the middle of the day Thursday and have been ever since. The cramps just started yesterday and are very painful today but manageable with over the counter midol. The amount of bleeding so far is just as I have read it would be. I hope it's over soon, but at least I'm past the waiting stage. I'll post another update after my Dr. appt on Monday. I'm still a bit emotional here and there but doing better.

[bhikfxtr]

Thank you so much for the prayers! Tomorrow i will technically be 8 and a half weeks. Tomorrow is also 2 weeks from when my Dr. said I'd probably have a miscarriage of both babies (Sept 28th). On 9/28 is when I saw my "vanishing twin" on the sonogram screen. I am nauseous as we speak and still no significant bleeding or cramps. I keep waiting to feel and see what I've read which is "a heavy periodlike bleeding and strong cramping". Has anyone out there had a different experience with a 5 and a half week miscarriage?? I'm pretty sure my body absorbed the vanishing twin, but what about the rest? I can't wait to hopefully get some answers from the sonogram next week. But any added infor or shared experience would be helpful! :/

[bhikfxtr]

UPDATE: light cramping (although not necessarily painful) last night and a little pale blood this evening on my sanitary napkin. I am due to call my Dr tomorrow to update them. When i call i will request another u/s. It will help tell me more of what my body is doing during such a confusing time. Having 2 uterus, I understand the blood may be coming from my left uterus while my right one has the pregnancy #bicornuiteuterus. On the other hand, it could also confirm I'm loosing the other twin. I would just like to be told a definite answer either way so my husband & I can move forward. My emotions/hormones are still haywire and I still have bouts of nausea and tender breasts. The support, insight, and kindness I've received on this forum is incredibly helpful and I am grateful!

[dolphin8808]

Please do keep us posted, praying for you to find answers xoxox

[Mattysmommy2213]

I'm currently 25 weeks pregnant. When I went for my first appointment I thought I was 10 weeks and it turned out I was 6 weeks 6 days. That is very early for an ultrasound. They found one sac with a newly beating heart and another sac with no heartbeat. They had me return a week later to do another sono. The second sac had disapeared but the first was growing and healthy. 5 weeks is very early and the heart isn't visibly beating until almost 7 weeks. So think positive!! Also my first pregnancy with my son I bled at 12 weeks, lightly and he was born healthy full term. Good luck!

[bhikfxtr]

Thank you Mattysmommy2213, I so appreciate the support! I am sorry for the loss of your twin but happy to hear of your healthy pregnancy and sweet son. Since my last post, I have had 1 more occasion of tiny amounts of transparent blood in the restroom on toilet tissue, but not enough that it drips into the toilet on it's own, and nothing today. This is such a confusing time! What complicates my thought process even more is wondering if the blood is even coming from the pregnancy in the right uterus. From what I've read, I suppose it's possible it may be coming from my left uterus (I have a bicornuite uterus).

[katiij81]

They can't always see the heartbeats or foetus properly at 5-6 weeks & one twin could be developing faster than the other so I would stay positive & take your vitamins, eat healthy & try not to stress until the next scan.

[bhikfxtr]

Thank you katij81. UPDATE: The only Update I have today is, I had the tiniest bit of transparent blood on the toilet tissue this morning when using the restroom. Could that be from the twin I lost? The nurse said there was a hemorrhage where the twin used to be. I'm still holding out hope that the other twin will survive. However, I am open to any comments/thoughts, no matter if it's truth that's tough to hear.

[Kim_adam]

Keep hope. My sister was pregnant and told the sac was empty and she was so sad but they were wrong. She now has a beautiful 3 year old boy.
The ultrasound was done too early. Best to get it done after 10
Weeks.

[bhikfxtr]

Thank you so much Kim_adam! I will do my best to post any updates.

[dolphin8808]

I am sorry I cannot offer much support as I do not know much about this. I am curious though, have you been to an OBGYN before?  Were you aware that you had 1 uterus's or was this all new for you? That is something I would be surprised that a doctor had not told you before.

Even if 1 baby disolves the other can def still survive. The docs will monitor you so just try to destress (hard I know but it will only help in the long run). Remember, this is out of your hands so lets pray and hope for the absolute best!! :)

[bhikfxtr]

Thank you so much dolphin8808, I appreciate the prayers. I have been for my annual exam many years in a row but I never had an u/s until September of this year, so maybe you must have an u/s to see it. What's more odd.....I called my Dr. office to ask if there's any way the other baby might make it. They looked at my most recent u/s records and told me not only had it stopped growing, but there was nothing in the sac. However, I KNOW I saw a fetal pole (a tiny line)! I know I saw something in there because that was the only thing that gave me hope at the time. Not sure what to do other than wait it out to see what my body does and continue normal caution with eating, etc. in case I am still pregnant. The nurses were very nice over the phone but they kept telling me that no, there wasn't anything there. So weird. I know what an empty sac looks like because both were empty on my first u/s appointment.