I'm so sad, I feel like I just want to DIE

[Nickey1]

Hello All,

I loss my baby on the 10th.  YEP, at 22 weeks I started having contractions Sunday, my water broke on Monday, and I delivered my son Monday..........and of course at 22 weeks he couldn't have survived......my heart is so broken, I just knew that this one would be different.........I guess this still isn't my time.............however, I AM going to get the fibroids removed, and HOPEFULLY IF we try again, it'll be different.  I haven't gotten back the autopsy, so I don't know if the fibroids were the reason, BUT I honestly feel that it was.

[sherrysb]

I am at a loss for words.  I am saying a prayer for you, the baby, your husband and the rest of your family.  I hope you feel all of our hugs that this forum is sending you!

[LeslieMaria]

Hey. It sounds to me like this has happened to you before. Has your doctor ever considered you may have what is termed an "incompetent uterus?" Its when the lower part of your uterus cant withstand the weight of the baby, and miscarriages often occur around 20 wks. if this is the cause, there is a very simple treatment in which they stitch your opening in a "purse-string" fashion and then your uterus can withstand the weight of the baby. many women have this problem and wonder why they always miscarry around the same time. I would suggest mentioning this to your doctor.

[AIM444]

I am so sorry for your loss. I am very crampy and am 6 weeeks pregnant. I have 3 children my 6 yr old has special needs, this was not a planned pregnancy, but now I am scared I will loose the baby. I am 37 and terrified!

[HeathJo]

Please try to stay strong. I cannot even fathom the pain you must be in. Please don't give up, on life or on TTC.

Hugs & Prayers,

Heather Jo

[FaithNHim]

I struggled regarding posting or not, however, I want you to know that you are an amazing lady with great inner strength. This is a period in your life that requires time, healing and most of all, prayer to make it through. Remember that God loves you dearly and He can and will help you and DH get through this devastating time in your lives. He knows your heart desire and will bless you with a healthy, baby before you know it.

It is important to take care of yourself, allow yourself to begin the healing process physically and emotionally. I will pray for you and your DH.

[denise_m09]

I'm so sorry about ur loss. I will pray 4 u and ur family.

[vsentz]

I am in tears Nickey, I also felt like just not posting a responce, but couldn't. You are such a strong woman... and such an example for all of us on how to stay strong!

Rest in peace little baby boy.

My heart, thoughts and all my love is with you girl.

I am so sorry... ='(

[Hales20]

I am sorry for your loss. It must truly be devastating for something like this to happen. It hasnt happened to me and hopefully never will but i really truly hope that you can get through this. I have said a prayer for you & i hope it can only get better from here. Put your trust in God, he will lead the way. I hope you are ok. My thoughts are with you and your family. I wish you all the best for what the future may hold.

Rest in Peace little one xxx

[lisaywg]

I am so sorry for your loss.  My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this time.  Wishing you all the best in the future.  Take care.

[melimeli]

I am so sorry about your angel... my prayers are with you..he is at peace

[kindergal]

I am so sorry for the loss of your son.  I cannot even imagine the devastation.  I hope you can take  a bit of comfort in knowing we are all here for you!!!!

[kellym]

Nickey,
I almost wasn't going to respond because I am at a loss for words. I do want to say I am very, very sorry for your loss and will pray for you and the strength to get through this.

[41lost]

I am sorry to hear about your lose.  I too lost my baby girl, so I know you are going threw a hard time right now.  I also have had the feeling that I wish I was dead versus feeling as sad as I do.  The thing that keeps me going is that someday (at gods will)I will be in Heaven with my baby girl and at that time I will be able to spend time with her.  You are right in not giving up.  Time will only be able to heal the scare on your heart but it will heal.  It has only been a month and I still miss her  and cry for her, but it does not hurt as bad as it did right after it happen.

[nylena]

Sooo sorry Nickey ,I wish I could help you relieve that pain...I do know how it feels,I have lost a son at 19 weeks due to a bad amnio.Take some time to feel better and try again! You are soooo young ,I'm sure you will make it very soon!

[Lexima]

OMG, I can't even begin to imagine what you're going through.  I'm so so sorry.  this is just the saddest thing.

[rukiyar]

Im very sorry for your loss , I cant say much right now as I am in deep shock and sadness as I know your grief is one that can not be explained in words.

[tina1111]

I am so sad. I haven't checked in over here for a while and this is the 1st post I read. My heart is absolutely breaking for you *tears* I don't have any words to express how sorry I am. I am here if you need anything at all. Please don't dissapear. I was so worried for so long last time. God has a plan for you, trust in Him and you will get through this again. They say he doesn't give us more than we can handle. Sometimes I question that. (((hugs)))

[adgal]

Oh Nickey, I am so very very sorry.  I too am at a loss for words.  How heartbreaking for you and your DH.  I am thinking about you.

Take care.

[carpediemforlife]

Nickey -
I cant find the words.  Im at such a loss for what to say other than I am so so sorry that this happened.  It really places value to the one day we get to hold our baby in our arms. And your loss has made me realize even MORE the blessing of the moment that happens.  After 2 m/c its always in the back of my mind....the what if.  I pray you seek inner peace after you grieve as this is NEVER easy.  You are in my thoughts and prayers.

[poupoune26]

omg, I'm sooo sorry you have to go through this. I just want to say I'm thinking of you and your family. Try to remember that in life, everything happens for a reason.  I know it's probably hard to believe right now but trust in god's plan for you...

Let me know when you get the results back from the autopsy..  ((hugs))

Melanie

[shesherm]

OOH Nickey!!!!! My heart goes out to you.  I can't believe you are going through this again.  it seems like just yesterday we were pg with preseed 1 and 2 :O(
Hang in there and know we are all here for you.  You and DH are in our thoughts and prayers
((Sheila))

[mrs5077]

I am so sorry for your loss....I know what you are going through as I too lost my baby girl (Briel) at 20wks.....It is hard and I think all the time about the what ifs.....what if I did something  wrong.....what could I have done differently....It is going to take some time and it does get better.....you don't get over it, but you come to terms with it and are able to deal with it.....give yourself time to heal and mourn.....I wanted to try again right after I lost her, but DH wanted us to give ourselves some time....the grief counselor also reccomened that we wait a while....I knew that I could never replace her, but you have that void.....it took me a long time and now five years later we gave it another shot and now I am 29.3wks and still can not rest until my baby is in my arms healthy and happy....My prayers are with you and your family.....stay strong and keep your head up and I am hear for you if you need to talk

Inga

[allip68]

I am so so sorry.  I can't imagine how you must feel, but it brought tears to my eyes thinking about you.  I wish you the very best in getting you fibroids removed and trying again...3rd one's a charm.

[mamaof6]

Oh my!  I am so sorry for your loss. Im at a loss for words, i guess there really is no words for something like this except to send my condolenses and pray for you and your family. May God bring you through this tragic time and comfort you. I myself am just waiting for my m/c to begin, adn im only 10weeks. i could not even imagine being that far along. I dont know if you are a religious person, but God has sooo helped me through this, as this my 3rd in a row. I just have to keep telling myself, He is in control and my precious little ones are in Heaven, which is a much better place than here. Once again, i am so sorry. God bless.