Not good news today..time for insulin

[orphanannie59]

I know I need to count my blessings, the baby is doing fine...but....my doctor has set me up with the diabetic doc, and wants me to start insulin soon.  I am so discouraged, I cried right in front of him. I knew this could happen, and have taken steps for it not to, only gaining 6 lbs , trying my best to eat healthy, and have been following a diabetic diet(strictly) for a 1 1/2 weeks, staying active (even when I don't feel like it).  I thought my numbers were good, but he wasn't impressed. He just kept saying we don't want a big baby, and then he said it could cause stillbirth.  Of course I know all of that, but I don't want to hear it.  He did try to encourage by saying most mothers don't stay diabetic.  I am so mad at myself for letting myself go over the last few years, and gaining so much weight (before pregnancy), I feel like this is all my fault.

I will struggle through, but I was so hoping for an uncomplicated pregnancy.  My mil has been predicting problems and I so wanted to prove her wrong.  

Thanks for letting me vent, I just needed to get it out.

Carolyn
25w4d

[Tanker Chic]

Van is right, you can't blame yourself.  When I failed my first hour test, I do remember feeling the same way tho.  I'm not overweight but I not been eating well and I remember thing, "OMG I did this to myself and the baby."   You changing your diet and still not getting good numbers proves that it isn't something you can control.  

By the more conservative standard, I failed the 3 hour test and I'm not overweight at all, so really don't blame yourself.    

[orphanannie59]

Thanks ladies, I can't really figure out why I am so upset, it may just be worry hormones :(.  Worry comes naturally from my Mother, she was such a worrier, and I have to work on controlling it every day.  I was doing so well lately, and this is just something I have to come to terms with.  I just need to look at the positive, and you are right, my doctor has been on top of it from the beginning (he started watching my sugar before preganancy).  He aggravates me sometimes, but I know he is good. Today is a new day!!  Positive thinking.  

[Van73]

I understand how you feel (kinda) I was diagnosed with GD and have to give myself insulin shots every morning. I was so disappointed and upset with myself!!  I never had GD with dd#1 or #2!  Anyhow, my Dr and Nutrionist said sometimes you just cant help your PG hormones.  I worked with a lady that was skinny and didnt gain a lot of weight while she was PG but she still got GD>  Anyhow, I have a better control of my diet now. HOpefully it is something I can carry after the baby is born (The diet, not the GD!!!) Try not to be be too hard on yourself! It's really not all your fault!!!

[Tanker Chic]

Oh I'm so sorry... Don't you just hate that when you feel like you are doing all the right things and you just don't get the results you want.  I gues if there is a bright side, it is that you and dr are aware of it and can do what is needed to take care of it.  I know it wasn't what you were hoping for tho..  I'm really sorry (as i reach for another cookie).  Just kidding, I to am on my best behavior.  It has gotten to the point that I am actually craving the things that are good for me instead of the junk..  White rice and potatoes are always my weakness tho.  

[melimeli]

I took insulin with my last daughter I was induced 3w early she was 7 lbs 4 oz and beautiful!  dont worry its not your fault