Thanks for ur sharing. I also hope that this baby will bring love in my life .. fingers crossed ....
It's an interesting thing, love. I love my husband and I feel very loved by my husband. When I got pregnant with my first son, I did not know how much you could love a child. I love my son and I know he loves me. When you have your baby, you will feel that undying love. It did not happen for me immediately, I honestly hated him the first day or so (i blame the hospital haha, I was so stressed out and tired and was never given any time to myself. I was constantly being harassed by the nurses who were just doing their jobs blah blah blah). Once I was able to go home, I felt the immense love you feel for your child. I generally hate kids. I didn't know how well I'd do with my own. You can't help but love them and feel loves by them. It's a strong bond and you will feel the love you feel doesn't currently exist. It will exist in the bond between you and your child :)