pph help

[Demi3054]

so I had my beautiful baby boy last Sunday and I had a PPh of 4l I had a balloon and a pack and I am traumatized by it has anyone else been through this I couldn't bond with him on the first day because I couldn't care for him

[Demi3054]

Thanks for replying it's nice to know that other people went through this too I'm feeling a lot better today just struggling to sleep I keep having nightmares about what happened as I could see everything through the light on the ceiling But I can get over this

[lousie_1986]

4L? Oh my goodness! That must be so difficult. My sister lost probably 1.5 and was pretty bad, and went under general to get stitched up, she didn't get to hold her baby for hours. Your case is even more extreme, and definitely tricky to bond when you're struggling for life! It can help to talk about it with your midwife, doctor or community nurse (if they're a good listener) and explain that you feel a bit shell shocked after the experience, you're worried/disappointed about bonding straight after birth, ask questions about it and what happened to your body and just get it off your chest along with some empathy and encouragement. Your hormones are going through a big upheaval too, and a big shock like that can send your emotions downhill pretty fast - don't beat yourself up over lost bonding time. Mostly, know that the greatest thing you could have done for your little one was to fight for your life and get better so he's now got a mum to bond with. Focus on getting to know him, know his face, his smell, feel his hands, snuggle him, feed him, hear his cries and kiss his cheeks. Bonding the first day is nice, but usually they are very tired out from birth and are pretty zonked out anyway... Anytime you give him from now will be just what he needs. Hope you feel more energised and a little happier soon :)