Hey i have been having some depression since finding out i am pregnant. Generally I'm the one telling people it will b e ok but i find I'm the one in need of some magic words....i was a teen mom and had three boys with a man that couldn't beat alcoholism so after it started becoming violent i left him...he has nothing to do with the boys...so i started from the bottom and started making progress, dated a little since i had been with only him for over 10 years starting when i was only in 9th grade. So i start dating this guy i worked with and i got fired only months after we started dating and he was there for me until i got on my feet, in the process i had to quit school but since then he hasn't kept a job or provided at all, we have lost homes, cars, and honestly my happiness, he has heart , diabetes, and weight problems due to his diet and lack of responsibility with his health, so i decided i can't put up with it anymore and my mom is in another state with stage 3 lung cancer dealing with chemo and radiation, with my taxes i was planningon leaving him, then only weeks before i get the money to go i find I'm prego and i, know I'm to blame but i feel he did this on purpose. To keep me here. Now i don't know what to do because in spite of his major flaws he loves his child he currently has with someone else and he loves me too and my boys....but now i don't know what to do, stay go? And how am i aroused to find a job up there if i do go while pregnant now? And I've been very sick with bronchitis and morning sickness, i don't want to take this baby away from a loving daddy...i find myself so sad that I'm bringing another baby in this scary world and ashamed of myself for doing this again but its different this time, usually i just say well i will be ok but now with problems beyond what is mentioned i wonder if it will be...I'm sad daily and i wish i weren't so stupid. I'm getting my tubes tied this time and i Hope i can chase these blues away and be more optimistic soon, i love my kids and know i will love this one too but I'm scared...any words of encouragement?? Advise?