So I'm 16 weeks now, and I had an appointment because since I'm diabetic, they have to monitor my blood sugar so they transfered me to a high risk clinic, and today we couldn't found the baby's heart beat, even tho the dr said that that's normal, still I wanted to hear it because it makes me calm down a little, and I think they gonna put me on more meds because of the blood sugar, and I don't know, it just hit me that maybe I won't be able to have a healthy baby, even tho I don't care, I'm still gonna love my baby no matter what but still, and I keep loosing weight so I don't know how is that my blood sugar is high, and I feel like I'm such a bad person because I can't even take care of myself and how can I take care of a baby