I know this is kind of a dumb question, but I have been having a lot of feelings of anxiety about it. Last night I was with a guy friend and one thing led to another and he ended up fingering me and I gave him a blow/hand job... It got all over my hands of course so I quickly wiped it off with a paper towel and he said he wiped his hands off (I didn't see it for sure).. After that we kissed, I don't recall him fingering me again but I feel like I have kind of black out that because I can't remember anything after that. I'm sure he was safe because I know he doesn't want children either.
This is my first sexual encounter, I normally don't really experience sexual urges so I haven't really acted on them. I'm not on birth control for some health reasons, but I plan on getting on it soon. While I was ready for it my anxiety is through the roof. My breast are hurting like crazy (which is normal for me when getting close to my period), but my period is not due for another 2 weeks.. Every little cramp I have I relate to pregnancy. Please someone just calm my nerves... I know this sounds absolutely crazy.