On my 3ed and asking myself the same questions. And as far as holding a new born surprisingly u wont even think about it. you'll do it natruly. Happened to me. 5yrs later i hope it happens again lol.
Thank you ladies! Guess I just have to learn to take it one day at a time.
I feel the same way too! Sometimes, when I rub my belly after a long day at work & she kicked - I get all teary & emotional. I know for sure I will miss her kicks inside me but at the same time - I can't wait to hold her & kiss her.
And the fact that you are nervous shows that you care about and love your little baby, which is a big part of being a good mother. You'll be fine, just trust your instincts - i plan to do the same lol (yeah, i'm a bit nervous too). And seems to me you have a good boyfriend there to support you.
Every question you just posed is totally and completely normal, even for us women who already have children! It's normal to think this way but it's a learning process. You may not always be the greatest mother but you'll be the best mother you can be and at the end of the day that is what matters.