Oh mjmom....I was just thinking of you and wondering how you were doing. I am so incredibly sorry. That's my biggest fear too and I hate that you are going through this. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers....
I'm sorry you are going through this.
I had a similar situation happen to me at the end of Feb. You don't have to leave. There are forums for miscarriage and for ttc after miscarriage, too. I know it's so painful to go through it, but you don't have to do it alone. I also know it's painful to be around pregnancy during that time, but the people here are generally kind and empathetic.
I hope pain gets over with quickly for you and that you feel better soon!