Feeling bad

[Newmomnyof3]

Im feeling bad I'm not excited that I'm pregnant again within a year of my last pregnancy and then I read some of the posts about women who can't have any or miscarried their baby. I'm not in the best situation relationship-wise and wish I could've made a better decision with my life. No one knows I cry just the thought of it. I'm scared of people would say at work when they find out. I feel like the biggest disappointment to myself. I'm a smart strong woman I just don't understand why I keep making such stupid decisions...on the other hand it's pretty selfish of me to feel this way considering they're people in this world that wish they could have or experience what I'm doing...which ultimately add on more tears

[Newmomnyof3]

Thank you so much that was so reassuring to me!!!!

[phenana]

Pregnancy is one of those times that brings up crazy conflicting feelings and thoughts. I've always felt thankful and excited about being pregnant, until this time. Which is ironic, we lost our last baby at 18 weeks in November and I put so much emphasis on getting pregnant again and "if I get pregnant again I'll be so excited and feel so fortunate" etc etc but now I am I'm not. I don't feel excited and I don't see it as a pregnancy yet, just a medical condition (I'm on bedrest and monitored heavily).
So don't feel bad, everyone's situations are different and for you this is amazingly hard, I can not imagine having 2 kids that close together and don't know if my mental health would be well enough to handle it!! So I completely understand when you say what you do. Does that mean you're ungrateful and that you should be grateful? I don't think so. Nobody can judge anyone else, all you can do is be in your own life and situation and not compare yourself to other folks.