Thank you everyone for your kind words of encouragement. It really meant a lot to me to have the support of women who have been through this or just know what I am going through.
Well after going through all of my stages, first grief, then denial/hope for different outcome, then pure anger, I believe I have now come to the acceptance stage. I have decided to do the d & c as soon as possible so that I can begin to move forward and heal. I stopped taking the progesterone, I will save them for my next pregnancy. I also need to make sure this was not another molar pregnancy. (I thought they were supposed to be very rare to begin with, much less have 2) I am hoping that it is not. I am still extremely sad and cry at the drop of a hat but I will be ok, I have a wonderful support system from my family and the wonderful women here. You would think I would be used to this by now. Thank God I have my son. I want to wrap myself around him and never let go. I feel blessed through all this that I am even able to get pregnant.
So anyway, the hospital called me this morning to make an appointment for the procedure so I am just waiting for a call back. It will be a matter of days. Then we can look forward to trying again. Thank you again everyone and I am very sorry for all of your pain that you have gone through also. I wish everyone the best!! Oh and sorry for all the double posts, I was desperately trying to make sure someone heard me. Thank you!
I'm so so so sorry for your loss. More than likely, the doctor is right. If you are sure about your conception date, then if no heartbeat was seen at 8w5d, the pregnancy is not viable. The doctor should be more understanding about your situation and that a D&C the next day is too soon! I know it must be hard, but don't give up all hope. You will carry another baby to full term, you already have one, it can definitely happen again! Stay strong and I'm sorry again for your loss.
I am so sorry that you are going through this. I have just gone through a similar situation. I was pregnant with two and one of them was a lot smaller than the other. At my first ultrasound they did nto see anything in the second sac, not even the yolk. At the next ultrasound, they saw the yolk sac, the fetal pole, AND the ehart beat. They could not hear the heart beat yet though. I was surprised since I thought it had not developed from teh beginning. Even though it was still smaller, I thought it would be ok. I was 6 weeks 5 days at that ultrasound and the smaller one measured 6 week one day which was a week later than what it measured the week before so there was a lot of hope for the second one! At my 8 week ultrasound last week, the doctor did not see anything in the second sac and did not see the heart beat and told me that the baby had passed. I am guessing it passed sometime during the 7th week. I will have my next ultrasound in two days and am praying for a miracle even though I know that it has got to be impossible for the baby to have gone from having a heart beat to nothing and then back to being fine so there is very little hope if any at all.
I am sorry to go on and on about my situation. I feel so sad reading your post. If you are for sure on yoru conception date, that you are 8 and a half weeks and they do not see the heart beat, I think the doctor is probably right about it not being viable. But maybe you should give it one more week taking the progesterone and have another ultrasound just to be absolutely sure. I have heard that some women's babies do not show the heart beat until later than most people. Since they see everything else I am not sure I would stop the progesterone just yet. Whether you have a D&C or wait to miscarry naturally is a very personal decision.
I am so sorry again and I will keep you in my prayers.
I'm so sorry to hear your story. My sister in law had almost 20 miscarriages over 7 years before finally being able to carry twins to term. If you think its too fast, maybe see if you can get a second opinion, or wait 1 week just to confirm with another ultrasound. Everyone is different, having a d&c so they can get the tissue and you can be on your way to healing, seems like the best option, but that is a personal choice.