Just Down All The Time

[Kaymanchase]

I'm bipolar on top of being pregnant. I've always been sort of needy, but a different kind before now. Its like I'm the happiest I've ever been when I'm happy, but the smallest thing sends me into a depression that won't go away until/unless my boyfriend   makes it by paying attention to me and making me forget that I was upset in the first place. But he is also typically the reason I get sad. Since we moved out near his job to his family's house, he's become all that I have, so he has control over my emotions being that I'm pregnant, his family and I are just now getting along, and I don't know anyone out here. I'm so homesick, but really home is where he is, so I know I'm doing the right thing.. Its just tough to feel so lonely all the time. He's either working hard, sleeping, or trying to prepare for our future as a family. There's tons of time that he spends with me, but its just not enough since I have no friends or family close by. I'm so sad. I'm just so sad. He's been in a bad mood lately because work pushes his body so much and I can't deal with it. He's my best friend. I'm so selfish for needing him so much and I know it, but I just can't help it. I feel like he's mad at me if he's not talking to me, but my good moods are probably too much for him so he probably doesn't want to talk to me as much as I do him. I don't know. I'm not feeling right emotionally so I'm sorry for blabbering gibberish.

[Kaymanchase]

You're right. Thank you so much, @kellybigbelly

[kellybigbelly]

I know how small towns work that does suck but your better than that. I know it's hard but who cares what people think. Be friendly to the townies just don't let them get you down. Who are they to judge you? Walking, going to the library are free things. Cheap hobbies like gardening, pintrest ideas that are baby crafts for free

[Kaymanchase]

I wish I could do things, but we're tight on money, he wrecked his car recently, and anywhere I go in this town.. I'm just his ex wife's new pregnant girlfriend. This is the town he grew up in and anyone I try to befriend has an alterior motive. All the girls apparently want to be with him and I can't try to befriend a guy because his parents and everyone else thinks I'm trying to cheat on him. Its such a small town.

[kellybigbelly]

That would be really hard moving away but you need to stay busy. Crafting, exploring your new area finding mommy groups around you, meeting new friends. I've been hard on my husband Also lately I was in a bad car accident and a prison in my own home so he is all I have and I'm probably smothering him