Hey Mommies!

[krushing]

Just catching up on my other mommies and seeing how things are going with everyone else.  A little update with us...About 3 weeks after Reece came home I realized something was not right with me.  I didn't want anything to do with him.  I thought that having him was a mistake.  We weren't sleeping and his reflux was awful and he was throwing up all the time and stressing me out.  And I say I knew things weren't right because I had miscarriage after msicarriage and prayed for a baby and then I got one and I felt like that.  I went on Lexapro and a nerve pill.  The nerve pill did the trick and I stopped the Lexapro 2 weeks after starting.  Doctor said since she couldn't make Reece better she'd make me better.  Things are much better now...I never stopped loving Reece, but just couldn't deal with him and being home alone all day with him was too much.  I thought I was an awful mother for these feelings, but was told this is really common...I just always told myself when I was pregnant it would never happen to me because I wanted Reece so much.  I think if he didn't have his reflux problem it wouldn't have been so bad.  I just stressed and stressed because he wasn't gaining weight because of throwing up and we had that hard time with his jaundice.  Reece will be 8 weeks Monday and is already 12lbs.  We got his reflux under control, hence the weight gain.  He is eating 6oz every four hours and has been for a few weeks.  During the night has gotten better.  We give Reece a bath around 8:45pm and then feed him with a little cereal and then he's in the bed around 9:30pm and sleeps anywhere until 4-5am.  WONDERFUL!!!  We are trying to get him in the bed earlier now that I am going back to work, because getting up at 4 or 5 doesn't leave much time to go back to sleep before getting up for the day and it's a little too early to just stay up.  But, it's trial and error.  Reece won't sleep in his bed in his room.  He does okay but doesn't last as long sleeping as if he was in his pack n play in our room.  So, hubby and I have decided to just keep him in our room until he sleeps through the night, which hopefully won't be too much longer.  Went to my post delivery appt. and doctor said I healed great and I got back on the birth control, depsite hubby being ready to jump and get pregnant again...ready for our Emma Grace (even though you can't pick what gender you want, haha).  Yeah, men are crazy some times.  We need Reece out of diapers before we consider another child.  And the thought of another 9lb baby vaginally scares me...healing wise.  We'll see on down the road.  Well, we are off to some family dinners for the holiday!  I hope everyone is doing well and those that are having a rough time here and there, I hope things get better for you soon...I know they will, just hard to think they will when you are going through things.  Have a safe and happy 4th of July!  Take care everyone.

[hkenny]

krushing-glad to hear you are feeling better, and its good to know your dr was helpful and understanding. dont beat yourself up over it, its hormonal and its actually pretty common.

[kylesMom09]

Glad to hear you are getting everything worked out and that you are feeling more yourself these days.  I had a bit of the baby blues in the beginning and was feeling pretty overwhelmed, but i got past it realativley quickly.  Kyra is getting bigger everday, i had her at the Dr. for a cold on Thursday and she is weighing in at 11lbs.  I am back to work now and i hate it, but we have to pay the bills somehow!!  We still are up once a night at about 3 am and then back up for the day at about 6am.  So i am still trying to adjust being up between 4:30am and 5am so i am ready for work before she wakes up.  I m feeling kind of drained these days, but i'll get used to it sooner or later!!

[tarrah87]

madison is doing great she is getting so big, i returned to work on june 22nd and it sucked. i miss her so much through out the day... she is 12lbs 10.5 oz and was 23 3/4in long so she's getting huge i will have to get an updated pic soon. glad you are getting better and reece is doing great. madison is an awesome baby most of the time, she hardly ever cries and shes so easy to calm down but she's spoiled rotten as well haha