I'm 12 weeks postpartum and I had the go a head at 6 weeks that I was ok to have sex whenever I wanted. I just still am really scared to do it for the first time, I had a really fast and traumatic labour 5 hours in total and less than 10 minutes of pushing ( all natural) , I was so swollen after I felt like a guy;p I couldn't even pee I had to have a caterer in. I just don't know when I will ever be ready, it's nerve racking to think about. I know everyone's but I feel like for some reason I'm not emotionally ready yet:$ I'm also scared of getting pregnant again, I have the patch I was just waiting till my next period to start instead of in the middle of a cycle. Any advice?