I really am 4cm.........................

[chantal21]

I had my OB appt. and got my other steroid shot, they listened to the baby and he/she sounds great. I am 33 weeks today. So a little background...been on bedrest since 28 weeks...should have been more strict about it I guess looking back. I am now not even allowed to take a shower. I will and have to be a prisoner to my own bed for the next 19 days. So anyway, I went to the OB office yesterday to be checked because I was having contractions and my back was VERY achy. The midwife there checked me and said I was 4cm and 80% effaced and baby was at a 0 to +1 station. Straight to the hospital I went for further testing and terbutaline, 3 shots of that.and a steroid shot and fluids. The contractions were every 2-3 min and finally stopped after the 3rd shot. Was checked after they stopped and the doc at the 'hospital tried to check my cervix once and was confused...made me switch positions and checked again and was like oh...I don't know what they were talking about but you are only 2cm and I can't even stretch you to 3 and only 50%...maybe."
Was sent home feeling pretty good then. So today my OB wanted to double check me and give me the other shot and as soon as she went in, she said you are 4cm without a doubt, 80% effaced and baby is at a 0 station. She didn't want to put me in the hospital yet and said I needed to be on SUPER STRICT bedrest and not even allowed to sit up. She really thinks I can get to 36 weeks if I behave, which I will!!! I do not want to be in hospital IF I can avoid it. No insurance, would mean a hefty bill...but I can't put a price on my child either.
So right now it's wait and see. I have had 4 spotting instances today...so I am very worried. I can't help but think... What have I done wrong????? What shouldn't I have done?? I bawled all the way home because I have no clue why this is happening to me...but I know I shouldn't question God. Everything happens for a reason. It will truly be a miracle if I get to 36 weeks at this point. Just wanted to update everyone on me. I am trying to just be positive, but's very hard right now. I'm sorry...my attitude stinks and I'm not usually like this. I really am just scared of the unknown and need to be positive.

[chantal21]

Thanks! I hope so too!

[AriQueen]

my gosh, sorry to hear that girl. I hope you can last til 36 weeks.

[chantal21]

Michele..yea the shots do make you feel crazy!! My whole body was shaking! yuck
My parents moved in a couple of weeks ago...so that has made things wonderful! =) They doesn't plan on leaving until the baby is at 2-3 weeks old. They live over an hour away so it's much easier than traveling here everyday.

Thanks for the prayers! Praying for you too!!

[Michele, Katy, TX]

Well, I responded to this and then my stupid computer decided to shut down, so I am trying one more time!!

I am sorry you are going through this and those shots make you feel really funny!!!!  NicMom said they did, and boy was she right!!!

Try to do the best you can to listen to their advice....I know it's hard w/ having other children, but just do your best and God will  do the best.

Sending tons of prayers your way........

[chantal21]

thanks girls! I'm glad I can come to you all with things! I'm just kinda stressed, but I am starting to have some peace about the situation. Thank you for the prayers, seriously!! Taking this day by day, or maybe hour by hour. We'll see.

[amberd5191]

I'm so sorry, you didn't do anything. I know deep down you know that. Lots of hugs and prayers. Much love.

[Latrice414]

Im so sorry you are going threw this chantal, try not to be hard on yourself, things just do happen that we have no control over.  Im sure its nothing you did wrong.  I will keep you and baby in my prayers.  Keep us posted, hang in there.