Trying not to let my fears overtake me!

[mlward3]

So today I'm about 20dpo and guessing right at 5 wks 1 day! I'm Just so nervous and scared! They put me on crinone suppositories at bedtime, And I go for first viability scan Jan 19! Wishing I had a few more symptoms though. Only thing I have is sore bb's and hungrier than normal but that seems to have gone away too! I am cramping on and off af cramps followed by discharge! I run to the bathroom everytime make sure I'm not bleeding! Thank the Lord I have not so far! I just know last time I just up and woke at 11 weeks and felt nothing no symptoms at all! That's how I knew something was wrong! I never bleed or anything! pray that this is a sticky one!! I'm putting my trust in God. A friend told me that I needed to quote this Scripture everytime I was scared. 2 timothy 1:7. For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind. AMEN!

[Poppi_Seed]

I do understand what you are feeling. I too have no symptoms and got scared the other day because I had a tiny bit of spotting for the first time and some cramping and I had no explanation for why. Things feel solid now and, though it could have been putting too much in the washer and trying to jerk it free, I am thinking the cramping could have been stress related as it was the day of my first appointment and telling my parents the news. So I think I have a lot of fear right now - maybe more than I am aware of. Maybe because without the symptoms it feels so small like it could just go away or something. So I'm thinking of it as a learning curve and that for my pregnancy emotional stress is going to be something I'm sensitive to so I should keep checking in on my anxiety level and keep myself happy, because this baby doesn't like it when I bottle.

[twinbabies]

I miscarried at 9 weeks, and just found out I was pregnant again on January 4th. I go for my first ultrasound on the 19th too! Good luck, I am sure you have a sticky little bean in there :-)

Try to stay positive :-)

XXOO

[mlward3]

Thank you ladies! I'm feeling better about things today! I pray we all have healthy happy babies!  

[Jackie0313]

Saying "don't stress it" would be so wrong.  I totally get what you are going through and it's so darn tough.  Just breathe, and keep breathing with the hope that everything will be alright.  Just think everything you're saying could be absolutely normal for this pregnancy.  Wishing the best for all of you!

[kellym]

All you can do now is wait until next Wed!  As long as there are no HUGE cramping issues or blood, why shouldn't this be normal? You deserve it right? I know that you didn't bleed with your last m/c and at 5 weeks symptoms can be all over the place. I am 5w 4d and besides missing my period I am symptomless as well.  I didn't bleed with my first m/c but I did with my second. You can only hope that this one will be different and in 9 months, you will be a mommy!