Baby jitters

[Brandy2017]

Hi, my name is Brandy, I'm 28 years old and I'm an RN, married and mother of two beautiful children, my oldest who is a girl just turned 9 on Jan 11th,and my son is 5 years old, so I have my pair!! I just found out I'm pregnant, about 5-6 weeks, and I'm struggling with my emotions. I've always said that I wanted a big family, but now that I'm actually pregnant I feel as if I'm going to lose a lot of freedom having a third child. I know it sounds selfish but it's a real fear and I'm  trying to shake it.  I haven't told anyone except for a close cousin about the pregnancy and I'm just not ready to tell my husband yet, our relationship has been shaky, we were separated for 3 years ,but it's been two years since that separation. In  total we've been together 7 years, I haven't told him but anyone else because I'm not ready to hear comments from anyone, I'm just trying to swallow my own feelings first. Im pretty sure my husband will be excited, but I'm  just not ready.  Any advice?

[blompt]

Maybe tell your husband and some of his excitement will wear off on you?  I've been trying for a year for #2.  We have a 19 mo.  I was happy at first, but then started thinking about my loss of the little free time I have, plus giving birth again, and started to wonder what we've done. Trying to forget about that for now and just remain astonished that we were able to conceive again.   And anxiously awaiting telling those that will be excited for us.