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Feeling a little better today..

It's been an entire 48 hours since I packed all my things and left my boyfriend. It still really hurts me, and I'm still crying but its getting a little bit better. The whole time I was with him, I always faked a smile and told everybody how happy I was but I was completely miserable being treated so badly. It feels good to finally let my tears fall and vent to the people who really care about me. It takes a load off of my shoulders knowing that I don't have to always be strong and that one day I will be without him. To all the moms going through what I've gone through, you can do it alone!! The pain gets easier with each passing day.
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I was in a seriously abusive relationship both mentally and physically for 8years, before I met my current husband. I faked a smile every single day, yet was dying inside. I stayed due to the fact that I was the only consistent, caring parent his son had so I felt I needed to give up my own happiness... 6 of those 8 years I was in total hell and complete misery... it felt so wonderful the day I left him, my severe anxiety, and fear along withsevere depression and hatred towards myself have all disappeared since I left!! YOU DID THE RIGHT THING!!!!!
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Just wondering how you've been doing.
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It takes a lot of strength to do what you did..Im hoping to do the same I just need to gather the courage like you....Just reading your story helps me not feel alone
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I think you're an inspiration.  You are brave and strong.
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I went thru a really bad divorce years ago. Took me a long long time to let go. But every day it slowly got better.. I cried every day n blamed myself over n over. It was so difficult and many times I just wanted to go back but I knew things could not be fixed. And one day I woke up feeling a bit better. N later I saw the sun shine again. It still hurt n mostly cuz I thought I separated my one year old from his daddy. Then one day I was ok. I knew then that we would be ok. It took over a year but although it will always hurt u will find a way to rebuild ur life n things may end up better for u and ur child. I remarried n my husband n lives r wonderful. . Different but I am truly happy. Same will happen to u. One day u will wake up n ur world will be peaceful n filled with sunshine. Just for now be strong. N never stay with someone who mistreat u.
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I am so so so proud of you. It takes a strong woman to realize her worth and leave when she isn't getting what she needs.  I am happy you left, you get stronger every passing second. Keep continuing on this positive forward movement for you and your baby.
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Thank you both :) Means so much!
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Thank you for your comment about my husband it is such a compliment to hear sometimes. I told him u let him and got out an he said holy f bc most don't so good for you.
It takes alot of time to get over the abuse u received over the years and u will cry for your loss of relationship but it will turn to crying for your hurt u endured and then to anger and eventually to freeing yourself. As u go through stages u will become happier and more for filled then ever before. And u know what u will not let this happen ever again and be stronger for it.
U r doing well keep moving forward if only to look back and see where u came from.
Good luck to you, surround yourself with family and friends it is important
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Wow good for you lady you should be so proud of yourself! Like the words from Dr Phil "I would rather be happy alone than be with someone who is making me unhappy"
A lot of girls stick around thinking babies will make things better...from experiece.. it makes an already stressful situation worse as babies are hard work..nothing will ever change until u start doing something about it. Like you said gets easier every day..it's much easier being in control of yourself than trying to control someone else which us impossible. You will be a better mom to ur baby now that uv done what uv done..once again be very proud!
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