paranoia?

[jackieandbraulio]

So idk if pregnancy can make you feel such things but lately I've been feeling like I'm going to die. I'm scared to be alone and I try to avoid it as much as possible because I really do feel like someone or something is going to kill me. On the other side I feel like its God trying to tell me to become close to him once again as I don't go to church anymore ever since my dad got arrested so I'm distanced from my religion and I feel guilty about a couple of things... I'm just scared...

[jackieandbraulio]

Yes! I constantly think crazy things and because of him adding to everything I feel like I can't be alone. I hope he's not there by the time baby comes I cannot be home alone with my baby and this guy next door. My husband works from 4 am to 7 pm so he can't be here for me as I'd like and I don't like waking him up at night because he already wakes up so early. I hope the cops can really do something soon.

[NewAngie]

No wonder you feel scared! Didn't know you had a neighbor like that. I hope he moves or gets addressed for that behavior. You really don't need that right now.

[jackieandbraulio]

Thank you,I'm definitely going to try several things. We live in an apartment right now and our room is right next to the neighbors room and he always wakes me up and he loves by himself and idk what's going on over there but he is up all night growling as if something is hurting him and he starts threatening across the wall saying stuff like I'm going to slit your throat and bangs our wall and our doors especially when I'm alone. My boyfriend has gotten to hear it maybe twice but it's happened a lot and we call the cops but they don't show up honestly. The guy ends up leaving and so nothing is done. we've talked to the landlord and everything. I feel so scared already as it is and this guy doesn't help ease anything at all. I'm up all night with scary thoughts after that because it's so frightening. But I'm going to try to talk to a priest soon to talk to and I've gotten some beautiful prayers that I will be reading before bed. thanks girls :)
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[jackieandbraulio]

Thank you,I'm definitely going to try several things. We live in an apartment right now and our room is right next to the neighbors room and he always wakes me up and he loves by himself and idk what's going on over there but he is up all night growling as if something is hurting him and he starts threatening across the wall saying stuff like I'm going to slit your throat and bangs our wall and our doors especially when I'm alone. My boyfriend has gotten to hear it maybe twice but it's happened a lot and we call the cops but they don't show up honestly. The guy ends up leaving and so nothing is done. we've talked to the landlord and everything. I feel so scared already as it is and this guy doesn't help ease anything at all. I'm up all night with scary thoughts after that because it's so frightening. But I'm going to try to talk to a priest soon to talk to and I've gotten some beautiful prayers that I will be reading before bed. thanks girls :)
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[NewAngie]

Sometimes when we feel anxious we can start to feel afraid of many things. I'm sorry to hear you feel scared. Try to relax some if you can - take some deep breaths, listen to some peaceful music, remind yourself you're safe. Don't be afraid to reach out to others who are close to you or even seek professional counseling (I've gone to therapy for anxiety/depression/family stuff & it's so helpful). I'm also Catholic and I like to use sacredspace.ie for quick daily prayers (the website has music you can play as well). My friend also sent me a book, Prayerfully Expecting, it's a novena to follow through the nine months of pregnancy. I always feel calmer when I pray to Mary, plus I like that this book has some nice quotes from Mother Teresa and PJPII in it. The only thing I don't like is that it refers to husbands instead of partners or other support people, so that does not feel inclusive, but I know God is inclusive, so just substitute with another noun I'd need be. Anyway, I didn't mean for this to become a book review ;) just figured I'd mention some prayer tools I've liked if you're wanting to turn to prayer. Wishing you peace and sending light :)

[nickmum]

Pray to God for the blood of Jesus to protect u all the times and u will be safe.

[jackieandbraulio]

Thank you girls :) this made me feel better. I was so scared and just been hard on myself I try to avoid being alone because I feel like someone or something bad is trying to kill me or take me to hell. I've never felt this way before until now and I'm terrified but I will come closer to God and listen to my heart :)

[thatsweetboysmommy]

Dont worry about those other people. God is a loving and forgiving God. full of mercies and grace,  and quite frankly I believe those who mess up more actually experience God on a wholeeeeeee other level then the people that just judge. when I got pregnant early lots of people looked down on me because of was young and now im pregnant again but like you I felt God telling me to draw close to Him because HE gave us a specific life to live and He knows our life not the others who are ignoring what He tells us to do. I got to experience Gods love like never before and im still learning of it today. Besides if you know in your heart God is calling you to Him, then how could He possibly be sending you to hell? HE loves you more then you could ever know. Never forget that and just let Him love you:)

[0_LING_0]

Those r just ppl who say that. How do they know what sins will take u to hell and which is worse? They r not god. Only he can judge. Don't worry about what other ppl say. Stay true to urself and to god and keep ur head up.

[jackieandbraulio]

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[jackieandbraulio]

Thank you, I just feel like well everyone sins that's obvious but when I commit a sin that is kind of bigger or more serious than others that has a lot of looked down upon feelings from my religion. I happen to be Catholic but I do feel like God forgives if you repent and become closer to him. I feel like he's telling me in a way to confess my sin and become closer to him. But yes, a lot of people tell me or I hear them talk about how certain sins have no forgiveness from of and certain sins take you straight to hell.

[kj_skibum]

The horomones from pregnancy do cause mood swings, depression, etc. I have had a few days where I cry for no reson....and I am a tough b who does not cry.

Remember that as a child of god, he is always with you. You do not need to go to a specific building, or socialize with particular people to have a relationship with god....churches and religions are man made rules used be people to serve thier own egos and assuage thier own fears that they are actively doing something.

You can have a closer, spiritual connection with a loving God by talking to him through prayer and grattitude...turning fears over to him and asking for guidance/protection.

If you do need social aspect, and it was those people at your church who cut you off, then I say go find a new congregation that focuses on spreading the love, tolerance, and forgiveness as Jesus taught, and leave those non believers and non followers to thier own judgemental RELIGION

[jackieandbraulio]

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