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FREAKIN OUT

i am so upset k i have a wonderful six month old son hes my world but the last two weeks ive been really worried k it started when talked to my stepmom she told me that she is worried cuz i was molested as a child that im going to do the same to my baby and that thoght has totally sickened me i mean ive never looked at children that way but since she told me that ive been a total reck i worry bout how i play with him, kiss him and even change him cuz i am a worryer since ive had him i mean bout everything! now cuz she said that i so scared cuz i dont ever want that for my son i dont ever want him to go threw the mentil **** i did i was messed up for like ever and now i feel that omg what if im like that and dont no it ??????? i no i could never do it but the mentil stress of what she has told me has really gotten to me and i feel like crawling into ahole and never comming out i would die b for i hurt him but my step mom seems to think that i will just snap one day and hurt him , it makes me sick the thought so i no i couldent ever i dont have that in me but she keeps tellin me **** and its killin me everyday i feel so uncomfortable and sick i dont no what a molesters mind is like so it freaks me out wit her sayin im going to, god i would never do that but is it true just b cuz i was molested and raped and messed wit mentily does it mean im like the men who hurt me PLEASE tell me im not that im just worryin for nothing cuz i would rather die than hurt him how i was
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omg i wanna kick your step moms a#$ that lady is toxic!!!!!!!!!!!! i also had horiffic things done to me as a child if anything it has made me a fericely protectively mother cuz i know the sick people that are out there i have 5 daughters and 1 son with twin boy/girl on the way and i never touched them well not like that anyway.i know how you feel thou whan i had my son i was afraid to touch his penis so his cercumsicion grew back and the doc had to fix it that was 14 years ago now im a pro and understand just cuz it happend to me dont mean im a monster to.i hope you feel better and tell that lady off it might help good luck  ***angie***
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Hi,
I might be to let for you to see taht but I was molested as a kid by my father. I have two kid one is 24 boy and one 15 girls and let me tell you that note one day that I was thinking of doing discusting thing to my kid and yes I was kissing them hugging them all the time and still do today. (sorry if that does not make sense I am french)  Please tell you stepmother to stop saying bad stuff to you she is distroying your relationship with you son.  Enjoy your son to the max
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to add...i couldn't imagine a day NOT hugging or kissing my boys. my day begins with those morning hugs and kisses. and my brett is definitely a morning snuggler (eli is more geared to get his diaper changed, drink his milk and PLAY!!!!!). but brett...he likes mommy holding him, wrapping him in a blankey while he drinks his sippy and just snuggles. same thing with bedtime. he likes when momma carries him upstairs "like a big ol' baby" while he drinks his sippy getting his hugs and kisses. eli, walks up by himself. he is such a big boy.
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your stepmother had no business saying that.  she doesn't know what she is talking about.  just because a person experiences something doesn't mean that they will repeat it.  i hug and kiss my girls all the time and so doesn't my husband.  it is natural and benefical to them.
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her saying that is completely uncalled for and disgusting. just b/c a person was molested as a child or even an adult (rape) does NOT mean they will do it too. don't listen to her...if she says it again tell her to shut it. this is your child and you're allowed to hug, kiss and play with him. i always hug and kiss my boys. that is built into us to just smother our kids with love.
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