Hi hunny, I am so so sorry to heat about the heartbreaking loss you have suffered and i don't imagine for a second your secision was anywhere near easy. I haven't had the same experience so I hope you don't mind me posting. I don't think anyone would have anything bad to say about what you did, it sounds like you had very little choice. I am against abortion just to point out and I think that if you had had a choice you wouldn't have opted for it. You are right when you say that even though your little girl wasn't full term she was still your little baby and the pain you are going through is normal and I am so glad to hear that you came to your senses about ending your own life, I know the feeling well but it is not the answer. I couldn't imagie having to make that choice you did, however, I do know the pain of losing a child. I lost my little boy at 1hour 15minutes old he was born prematurely at 25 weeks for no reason at all they can find, they made us take him off the machines saying he was dying anyway and it was kinder to do so, I still think and cry about all the things you do, what colour of eyes and hair etc he would have ahd, and I am sorry to say you are right those feeling never go away and the pain never really lessens as such, it gets a little easier to deal with with time, but you will catch yourself crying about it and felling just the same as you do now, but you will as you say always remember your little angel forever and I am very sad and dissappointed to hear your own mother said those dispicable words to you!!!! Counselling is a good idea it helps bring out the emotion, whether you want to or not, it is scary at first but relieves some pressure after a while. I hope you will think about trying again, I know you are scared just now, but like you say turners is a very rare thing to happen, and although other things can go wrong it doesn't mean they will, I have had two babies after my little angel babe, granted they were premature also but both happy and healthy now so it is possible. please keep your chin up and remember you are still healthy and when you fell a little better in your mind you are perfectly able to start the family you want so much, again it will never replace hte little girl you lost but again you will never forget her either, she will always be a part of you and your family. I wish you all the luck in the world and I hope you feel better soon and I am sorry If I have rambled on a bit. Please if you need someone to talk to, I would be a glad listener and happy to try and help anyway I can. :) x
so sorry for you lose....I know is hard....i lose 7 pregnancy and yes is true....everyone you always will remember and everyone it hurt went it happend, but you have to be strong and dont lose hope.....god give you strenght to go true this moment.....dont let the fair stop you to keep trying....look at me.....i have a child, 7 now and after she was 2 i try again for another child....in the last 5 year I misscarry 7 time and here im pregnant with 40 week 4 days and praying to everything go ok this time.....that is life....some time we dont know why but it happend.....good thing, bad thing....the only thing we can do is keep trying and pray and hope the next time everything will be ok......god bless you and give you strength to move foward....you will be in my prayer.
Thank you both so much for your kind words and support it means a lot to the both of us. You are courageous and strong women and your individual stories have helped me know i am not alone. Although we all have lost we will never stop loving our precious babies and your kind words give me hope for the future. Tiroloca i don't know how you have managed to stay so strong after 7 failed pregnancies you truly are an amazing woman who obviously has a lot of will power and determination. I am so happy to hear you both now have the families you so longed for and hope that i can soon see how that feels too. Thank you again xx