:0 freaking myself out watching these videos.
I have had an epi for two births. This one I don't want to use an epi. With my first and second I did pretty well. More with my second birth but I'm scared that what if I thought I did good because I wasn't feeling all the pain just some. I did feel pain while my son was actually coming out but what if that wasn't even close to how much it could hurt without an epi?!
I'm just nervous and scared I could have started crying today just thinking about it! And I'm having bad pelvis pain too I can barley move my legs or close them what if I can't handle feeling myself open up and feel everything stretching?!