My mind is racing, help!

[salli_09]

I am very afraid and upset of the thought of being pregnant. I don't know if I truly am or if I am just paranoid, but things seem to be a blur of thoughts...

My last period was Januaray 12th (tues) and several days later on the friday. Me and my bf were messing around. We didn't have sex, but he did ejaculate on my hand. I didn't touch myself right away, I opened some doors before it happened & some minutes passed, but without thinking I was lying on my bed and I touched myself with the used hand. I believe I put my finger inside me some before realizing what I did and stopped.

I am afraid because I've read some women can actually ovulate during or very shortly after their period. In a way, I don't think I am pregnant because I noticed that I had the clear discharge on the 26th-27th or so and I know that is associated with ovulating.

Then again, I noticed my breast feeling tender around the 30th of Januaray and I usually get that way a week before my period begins or so. I noticed some slight cramping on Monday and a little today. I usually feel the cramps right when my period begins too...

I took a pregnancy test on February 5th and on Monday here (8th) and they were both negative, but it seems when I read all these things online, it feels like I just not out of the woods yet, there is a new twist to everything I think confirms that I am safe.

I am suppost to get my period today or tomarrow. It hasn't arrived today, so it has to be tomarrow. I don't know what to think I feel nervous....

[jmg1450]

Sperm can only live about 20-60 min outside the body...IF it is kept wet maybe longer. To prevent this "scare" from happing again I would suggest purchase of spermicide. Use the spermicide on your hands before you touch yourself and/or after.  IF you and your boyfriend choose to have intercourse and do not wish to get pregnant make sure you use protection EVERYTIME and once again use the spermicide and get on birthcontrol. If both are not an option than the first option is probably the best in regards that it also helps prevent STDs.  There are many ways to prevent pregnancy just make sure you have the resource avaible for when the "mood strikes" if you can't get access to the resource than abstain from any sexually activity where sperm may come in contact with an egg.  

[mommato2tots]

Was your hand still wet when you touched yourself from his ejaculate? I believe I have read (don't full on quote me of this) that sperm can't live long on the outside. There's always a possiblility because nothing is completely fool proof, but from what you have explained, I wouldn't be worried. If you haven't gotten your period by tomorrow, I would test around Friday. Stress can also make your period late so try not to worry about it too much (I know it's a bit hard to do) but keep in mind all the symptoms you're feeling could also be associated with your period. I'm sorry if I wasn't a lot of help, I'm not an expert so I can't really give you a for sure answer, all I can tell you is my opinion. Good luck!