Hi there sweetie. You know, I'm sure you'll love this baby when she arrives. I remember when I was pregnant with my second which I had wanted very much, I wondered if the new baby would interfere with what already felt like a happy life. I think it's so funny I worried about that now with how much I adore this kid. But I'd look at my older son and think -- I hope I just didn't ruin your life. ha. I was tired with a toddler (my boys are 15 months apart in age), worried about money, highly hormonal, on and on. And that you felt the same way about your first kind of tells me this is how your hormones react in terms of your mood. You DID fall in love with your baby even if not immediate (and the truth is, for some -- bonding does take a little time). So, anyway, hang in there. Maybe your mom or someone can help you with getting a few things you'll need for new baby. You're almost done with pregnancy, YAY! Hang in there and hugs.
I totally understand how you feel. Took me a while to feel like a mother with my first daughter. And now I can't imagine my life without her!!
I'm 36 weeks with a second girl now, my first daughter is only 16 months. She was a micropreemie and has been through a lot!! So I almost feel guilty having another baby.. I just don't want her to feel left out or jealous esp. since she's been through so much already!!
At the same time I'm hoping ill be able to connect to baby#2.. I haven't even bought anything for the new baby yet, just plan on reusing my daughter's things for the most part.
I'm sure we'll be ok once the babies come, just hoping its all hormones!! I'm also a stay at home mom, and I just keep telling myself that baby#2 is a gift for my daughter - younger sister, someone she'll be able to play with and grow up together!!