Well, it was my first visit to Dr. Lott, he is new in town and has practiced in Illinois and Vegas. He wants to put me on lexapro, because I stopped taking my luvox.... but the side effects are the same with the lexapro as with the luvox... so why start a new medication???? Right??? Well, I was themost worried about the ativan because it can "slow everything down" Like I said in the previous posts, I was on 3 mg a day and now I am down to 1. I just dont feel that I should take such a high dose... and the 1 mg is hard, I wont lie... but I HAVE to ween myself off to a lowe dose, and basically he agreed. He said to just take very low doses, so I am just going to take the 1mg and try to get down to half an mg. He said that the only thing he really sees in his books is the possibility of a cleft pallete, which just totally freaks me out, but for the first 6 weeks (I didnt k now I was pregnant) I was on 50mg of luvox 3 times a day and 1mg of ativan 3 times a day... now I am just on 1 mg on ativan. Its hard... so hard, but it seems to take the edge off... I am worried that any damage has already been done. See, we tried for 3 and a half years to concieve with no luck... then we just stopped... because we thought we werent ever going to concieve...God said something different. Anyway... I have started on my prenatals, and just1mg of the ativan... I pray that God will make everything ok with this baby. He knows that my body needs this. I keep telling myslef that "It's not like I am shooting heroin or smoking meth" (There are so many girls here in this small town that are addicted to meth, its just rampid here... horrible) I am not doing it to get "high" I am taking it to cope and live with my disorders.... then Itell myslef I am making excuses. I am afraid that damage has already been done.. Ugh!!! He also wants me to see a high risk doctor when I am farther along. He said that he has had patients like me and he hasnt seen anything come from benzo's and pregnancy. God, lets keep it that way. Also, one of my very best friends is pregnant and had seizers the other day and they gave her injections of ativan and valuim. She is just a few weeks more than I am.... So.. Please keep the comments and prayers coming!!!