I've struggled with depression for years before I fell pregnant and I never dealt with it in the right way. I'm still struggling now, although it's not as bad as it was, I still have times where I don't see the point in my existence, etc. But at the end of it, all I think about is this beautiful life growing inside of me, depending on me and needing me. I suppress my depression because I want to be the healthiest mum I can be and to show my child that I'm a good positive role model. All you have to do is strive hun. If you're still struggling after the next few weeks maybe think of seeing a counselor or talking with your midwife about what you should do. Just try yo be positive, good luck xxx