Well u have a little bun in ure oven that will love you unconditionally no matter what but It is also Important that u not feel the way that u do ur little one feels everything u feel when ur hapy sad upset even when u don't love him . Trust me I was angry mad and upset when I got knocked up but God has blessed u and I don't mean it in the most religious way but u have been given a gift for some reason ure life will change, everything will change but for u to evolve into a much more and better person u will live learn and grow from ur gift and ur little one Will challenge u but remember nothing is put on ure path for no reason it is a challenge given to u because u can overcome it because u can grow from it, if u really feel the way that u do I would get a tarot reading ur spirit guides Will speak onto the cards and you'll have some direction as to where u stand past present and future
I guess in your shoes I would try to find a therapist or counselor, and to work out with him or her what is going on in your life that you like, and what is going on in your life in general, and to try to set some plans.
I think theres a specific forum for when you feel like this honey if you wanna search for it thats all I could tell you :/ I hope you feel better about yourself im sure youll be a great mommy :)