See someone and understand it's not your fault and that you're fears are completely reasonable considering what you've been through
It is normal for you to be hypervigilant about this issue. Please seek counseling to help you process your fear so you dont carry these feelings over to your fiance or your child. It will help.
Yes I know ur fear but pleaswe don't scare ur relationship away
My father molested & best us to within an inch of our lives. When I grew up & started having children it came back to me in full force. I would never let my husband change diapers or give baths. I knew this fear was not valid bc my husband would never, ever do that. But it was my fear & he just respected it. If I was in the room he could change diapers, etc. now 1 of my daughters is pregnant & I keep telling her u have to be careful as too who u let be around ur child. So even yrs later, I still have that fear & I have had years of therapy. Sometimes u just have to give that blind trust:)
Yea... you guys are right. But im not sure how to get counseling... I mean like where do i go to try to start it.