I'm so sorry to hear of the passing of the father. Is this your baby's father (not your own dad?)? That's so hard. Mourning and grief are such powerful and deep emotions. I've had great loss myself sweetie. This is an old cliché, but it is true. Time heals. You'll always have the loss but it hurts less. Try to believe that. Now? Just be really kind to yourself. Give yourself some TLC. Stay surrounded by helpful and supportive people. Try to stay busy with times of inactivity too to rest. get help with your child when you feel overwhelmed. But know that it WILL get better. You will always miss this person. But the pain dulls and we do move on. hugs and we are here if you need shoulders to lean or cry on.