I was the same exact way with my first bb cuz my mom was there physicslly buy not emotionally n i want to b my boys best friend but also their mommy! It will come naturally as a mother!
Look into something called conscious parenting. Its meeting the child where they are instead of on your own agenda. From years of taking care of children with all different personalities, I personally have learned that what is fair is not always equal and what is equal is not always fair. I tend to treat children with the same manners and respect as adults. You just have to be you or you will always be second guessing yourself. Hope that helps ease
I worry about this too. Im a first time mom, pregnant with a baby boy. Both my husband and I grew up with very strict parents so we are traditional. But my parents never communicated with me with words growing up so i was rebellious as well. Ive been reading parenting articles online but i feel it should come from your heart and past experiences, it also depends on what kind of personality your child has. I plan on being very firm with rules, but gentle enough to communicate with my son whenever something is bothering him. Its also good to let toddlers know that they are safe whenever/if they throw a tantrum. I dont believe in time-outs or beating children. Hope i gave you some insight on my ideas.