Hi there. Oh goodness, I am sure so very sorry. You've had so many things in your life time that are beyond hard.
Ugh. Your husband. Grrr. Well, it IS very hard to accept sorry for actions that are inexcusable. Sorry needs to be backed up by HIS actions. What is he doing to prove to you that he is 'changed'? Full access to his computer, phone, etc. Checking in with you frequently? Being an open book? Allowing you to yell, cry, pound your fists into the pillow any time you are taken with the emotions that this is certainly causing? Hopefully you two can see a marriage therapist togehter. I'm very pleased that you see one alone and hope that you continue to do that.
Was the marriage rocky before this information surfaced? And how did it surface? Did you stumble on the info or did he confess?
You have been suffering depression and anxiety-- of course, this is a crisis point for you having just learned that your husband is cheating--- so feeling extremely down is normal. Antidepressants and depression therapy is good and does work but it doesn't mean that when something awful happens that we aren't going to still feel the depth of that pain. The treatment evens out our brain chemistry to normalize us but we will still have a really hard time with something like the knowledge of a new affair.
so, please don't think that your therapy/medication isn't working. Talk abotu this with your doctor. Hon, if it ever gets so bad you feel like any type of self harm, please please contact your doctor and tell them this.
We are always here for you to vent or to offer any help that we can. Do you have support in your life as well--- family or friends to lean on? This is a good time to reach out to those who love you. Peace
I'm so sorry to hear that you're in such pain right now. Please keep yourself hydrated, i was brought into the ER for dehydration a few weeks ago with delirium, not knowing my own birthday. Please make sure you drink water!! You don't need to be scraped off the floor!!
You've mentioned that you sought therapy three months ago. How is that going?
You have 7 reasons to get through this, more if you include the grand-babies, so DON"T GIVE UP!!
Maybe you should consider couples therapy for your trust issues with your husband? Maybe that would help prove to you, one way or the other, that he is serious about coming clean and you may find some peace concerning your relationship?
I'm praying for you to find your way with therapy and please know that we care here on Medhelp for you. We're here to help you, when you need to talk.
Hugs, Liz
How old are the kids, and are they still at home? Do you have a therapist? Do you have a minister or pastor?
Are depentent on his income and do you have a profession or work skills?