yesterday, i dont know how it happened, but it happened, i had a protected sex with a girl i met that i dont even know her name, anyway, it was so fast and it was in a time that me and my wife were having a fight, i feel like i betrayed her, i love her to the moon and back, she is the only one in my mind, the only one i love and the only one i care about in the whole universe, i dont want to tell her about that because i know how does it feels like, she cheated on me before many times and i found out and then she promised me that she will try all her life to make it up to me and to be faithful, i forgave her, but i kept angry with her in my inside for the last year and i didnt understand how she could do it but i forgave her and i never talked about it anymore even that it destroys me from inside, i love her , i cherish her and i dont want to loose her at all , my life is nothing without her but i know now im really not a good husband, i never wanted to cheat on her, i was just dragged, even while i was having sex with the other girl, i felt so wrong, so bad and so guilty that i couldnt have an erection anymore.
im crying now , i dont want to tell her, im afraid i will lose her and i dont want to make her feel bad, i will never ever do it again no matter what just because i dont want to loose her, please help me .