Hey Gemi -
You really, really need to talk to your gyno about this. Taking birth control can increase your risk for cervical cancer slightly - most of the time, it's not a high enough risk to worry about, but you have precancerous cells that you are not addressing.
Also, I found this - https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3222104/ - women who use a combination type of birth control pill - which is what Yaz is - tend to clear HPV slower than those who don't.
I can't tell you not to take this, and you absolutely need a doctor's opinion on this - you know I'm not one.
I don't know that birth control will make it worse, but waiting will make it worse for sure. You've already waited 8 months. I know you are scared, but it's time to deal with this. It just is. By waiting, your life could be at risk here. Cervical cancer can be fatal. Not dealing with it doesn't make it go away - it just gives it more time to get worse.
I don't know if you should take the birth control, but taking the birth control implies that you are having sex, and having sex puts you at risk for other strains of HPV, even if you are using a condom. You know this already.
Are you still in therapy? Have you talked to your therapist about this?
Make the appointment, Gemi, and keep it. You deserve care from a doctor who sees you in person, and your area isn't locked down anymore. You are in an area with some of the best medical care in the world. Use it.
I know this may seem harsh, but think of it as tough love. We want the best for you.
I'm so glad it went well, and yay for you for advocating for yourself!
It sounds like you like the new doc, and that's great, too.
Endometriosis is hard to find on a pelvic exam, and he's right - it could be just starting. Time will tell on that.
When do you get the results of the colpo?
I'm so proud of you for doing this. You should be, too. :)